(Continuation from yesterday)
次女と母の施設に行った時、その施の看護師さんが、次女に「次女の(絵の)ファンです」と言っていました。
When I went to a facility that my mother was, a nursing staff told my daughter to say "I am a fan of your pictures".
正直、
To tell you the truth, I thought
―― 羨しい
I envied her.
と思いました。
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私にも、
For me, I have a would-be fan of Ebata's works. They say for example,
「敬愛、尊敬の対象たる江端さん」
"Ebata-san, I have a high regard for you"
とか
「西の『東野圭吾』、東の『江端智一』」
"If "Higashino Keigo" is in the west, "Ebata Tomoichi" is in the east"
とか、
そういう、白々しく、見え見えの、明かに嘘っぽいお世事(というか完全な嘘)を平気で言う人間(後輩に多い)が、一定数いますが、
They, who are generally younger, are saying such ringing and fabled compliments ("perfect lie" in fact) without hesitation.
どうにも「ファン」の言動とは思えません。
However, I am afraid that their comments are not something of fan of my works.
むしろ、発言の一つ一つに、もの凄い「侮蔑」や「嘲笑」を感じます。
I rather feel that their each comment includes extreme disdains and scorns against me.