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2018-10-01 "Ebata sect" [長年日記]

(Continuation from yesterday)

It means,

"The current Buddha style funeral in Japan, while setting the teachings of Mr. Goudama Siddhartha as a seed, is being carried out based on the content of the secondary secondary creation which Goudama did not even assume "

In other words,

(1) According to teaching of Goudama Siddhartha,

"All human beings die. Accept that reality, live your life without excessive sorrow "

(2) According to Buddhist teachings (ritual protocols)

"All human beings die. Therefore, in order not to forget the deceased, repeat various Buddhist ceremonies endlessly "

But this is an obvious double standard.

Besides, as the case may be, the explanation of the above (1) is done in the ritual of the above (2).

this is,

"Contradiction in Contradiction, "King of Contradiction""

I think that it cannot be hepled.

Well, this topic is relatively easy to explain from the business model of religion, but I will stop it this time.

-----

In conclusion, I think that we can have

- "self-determination right" as to how to die, in addition, "self-determination right" in our way of life,

Furthermore,

- "self-determination rights" as to how to handle ourselves after my death,

To summarize these, it becomes doctrinal, and if it is described it becomes a scripture.

-----

Here, I suddenly noticed.

"This diary I write continuously every day, is a doctrine, and scripture"

"Accidentally I have established a new religion of me, by me, for me.

Then, I, here,

"Ebata sect"

that I will declear the launch of a new sect.


2018-10-02 It was me, who has proposed to go to the late show of "Natsume Yuujincho (movie)" to my family, last Saturday. [長年日記]

It was me, who has proposed to go to the late show of "Natsume Yuujincho (movie)" to my family, last Saturday.

It is rare for me to go to the movie theater, however, I wanted to go for once.

Recently, I have felt bad about my work, and I wanted to calm me down with watching "Natsume Yuujincho"

Well, I had fun.

The movie didn't try to make a great impression, but showed the scenes lightly, calmly and gently.

In the car on my way home, we warmed up the topic of "How pretty Nyanko-sensei was!"

-----

"Natsume Yuujinchou" is the comics of magazine serial, and the sixth qtr of animation have been completed. From the look of things, this is amazing.

In the Ebatas, my wife is bad for animations, and have a fear of spectre or ghost. So I have made an effort not to watch "Natsume Yuujinchou".

On one occasion, she watched it by chance, she continue to watch it.

She said, "This is O.K."

-----

And,

As a opening special gift, the illustration and postcard of "Natsume Yuujincho" for each people, were given.

My daughter got a set of them, however, both my wife and I are not interested in the goods.

However, I think that there are some people who want "the illustration and postcards", and I will give it to them.

On the other hand, I don't want to put it on show, by Yahoo auction or Merucari.

So,

If you just send me the mail, which you write "I want the illustration and postcards", I can accept the first two persons.

(Please seek my address out from my HP).

I will reply mails to only the first two persons, and please give me your post address(I don't need real your name).

I will pay for the stamp, to avoid my bother.

It is O.K. if you visit my HP for the price (e.g.140 counts for 140 yen).

Of course, I am not supposed to admit the request from resellers.


2018-10-03 I think this makes me feel easy, doesn't this? [長年日記]

I can enjoy television dramas and animations from the final episode.

It is enough for me to watch the digest edition of "sharpshooter" of football game.

This is a result of technical writing training, based on "start it from the conclusion"... correction, just for my character of "I am not interested in some kinds of contents"

-----

For me, I don't mind starting to read the latter book, when I make a reservation for book in two volumes, and the latter arrive.

In this case, the latter book "Sapiens: A Brief History of Humankind" arrived first.

I have known this book before, however, I have also know that this book was recommended by a retired president and an IT company CEO. In cases like this, repulsive force is going to work in my mind.

At this moment, I come to cling to my mind of "I never read the book" perversely. However, you-know-who asked me to read it, I was reluctant to accept his proposal.

"Shit! How amazing this book is! "

Especially, after reading the analysis of religion categorizing, I dropped my head with saying "I am looser absolutely"

First of all, there was no competition.

-----

The two special impressive descriptions for me, were

"Happiness is the amount of secretion in our brain"

and

"Happiness is measured not by scalar values not by vector values"

(Incidentally, the two above phrases were made by me(not quotations))

In conclusion, "our minds are chemical entities"

Correctly speaking, "variations of electric signal that are changed by chemical entities"

-----

I graduated from a college by submitting the study about "neural network", so I should have known it well. However I can forget the fact easily again and again.

In this time, I could come as a fresh reminder that "our minds are chemical entities"

If I make a bad job of it and make a blue, the reason is not "me" but "chemical entities",

If I don't want to go to work every Monday morning or the day after consecutive holidays, the reason is not "me" but "chemical entities",

I think this makes me feel easy, doesn't this?


2018-10-04 "Some people who don't know the background, might think that I have been battered by my family. [長年日記]

Autumn has come.

In autumn, sanma(saury) become delicious.

We can eat all parts of sanma, expect of the bone.

All parts are delicious.

However, my wife and daughters said that "organ parts are so rough that I cannot eat them"

Though I think "the taste is good", I cannot put my eating style into others.

So in my family, I have ordered both my wife and daughters to leave the organ parts of sanma for me.

This is an excellent management policy to make my family feel happy, "symbiosis in home"

When I arrived at my house yesterday at a late hour, there were two ruins of sanma on the dining table.

They seem to toe the line well.

It is fine and dandy.

-----

While changing the sanma including organs to with just bones with alcohol-free beer, and spending happy time, I thought that

"Some people who don't know the background, might think that I have been battered by my family.

"This scene seems to be less than the meat of tame cat in the family cartoon

-----

The form of happy family life is not unique, and is difficult to find the least common denominator.

I dare to say from above, like hight of stratosphere,

"You cannot understand the style at all, without managing your family by yourself"

(To be continued)


2018-10-05 However, it seems that the concept of "diversification of the family" has not been recognized yet. [長年日記]

(Continuation from yesterday)

Nobody cannot decide a happiness style of each family, as nobody cannot decide a person feature.

However, strangely, many persons who don't manage their family (e.g. a single), are apt to make their image about family by themselves (mostly based on mass-media)

For example, in the drinking party, I have heard their opinions,

like,

"A father who walks in underwear in front of my daughter will be disliked"

or,

"A wife will get mad with her husband, if he forgets a present at the anniversary.

e.t.c.

Ha-ha-ha. Don't make me laugh,

It is me, that is in troubles.(I omit this topic anymore)

Family owners continues to hear the story with wry smiles of the stereotypical singles talk.

It is difficult to explain these things logically. Moreover, it is troublesome(sake and food will also be unpleasant).

-----

In recent years, I think that the understanding of diversification of "individuals (including gender issues)" is getting deeper (*).

(*)There seems to be some politicians who contribute discriminatory content papers about sex difficult issues, and lack their study and logical-thinking.

Also, there seemed to be diversities with respect to "ethnic" and "nation" from the past, though it has been started around 150 years ago(*)

(*) Since long ago there were words "domestic interference" and "ethnic independence".

However, it seems that the concept of "diversification of the family" has not been recognized yet.

It cannot be helped that a person who has no experience to have a family, have a stereotype family view.

However, the prime minister of a country, who trys to re-make a new (but old) family style withount knowing the present 'family diversity', is going to operate state affairs.

This is a very scary thing.


2018-10-06 At the moment I opened the container, I could get an image that all goods were flying to the sky. [長年日記]

At this typhoon, I had experienced "power outage" at home for the first time in my life.

(At the time of the earthquake of 3.11, I was waiting for the recovery of transportation in the office without going home )

-----

At the day, the blackout started before midnight.

Of course, I lost all data of my PC, when I was working on a computer. Three servers running at home (Raspberry PI) also forced down.

However, I have already installed five small LED flashlights at light switch panel of each room. So I could avoided to search them around.

-----

The problem was "news".

In my house, there are several battery-type radio, but I could not find cells. that were six C size battery.

Such high electric pressures are not needed to work the radio, however, the radio that has a CD player, need several cells.

A portable radio has, of course, has been prepared. But the radio was in the rescue container at the garden. I had no guts to take it in the severe storm with standing in fear of my life.

At the moment I opened the container, I could get an image that all goods were flying to the sky.

I was afraid that the blackout kept modestly long time. However I could not see more than 15 hours.

-----

In fact, the refrigerator was in big trouble, by this blackout.

This time, I could know that cooling capacity recovers soon, after power feeding.

At the earthquake of 3.11, I heard that the the refrigerator keep food for three day, however, as long as I remember, any food had been damaged seriously.

After the day of blackout, our dinner seemed to include many meat and vegetable for a few days.


2018-10-07 "He didn't do such big deals did he ?" [長年日記]

Jesus Christ, who appears in the New Testament, could

heal patients just by touching them

or

rise from the dead after suffering the death penalty by Rome,

By these miracles, he and his pupils could broadcast Christian faith to the world. (Bible said that)

-----

However, I also could

make the application activate by touching the PC, (even my family complained)

or

make the WiFi access point of my house restart normally, just by connecting a wire LAN cable, after the blackout by typhoon for 15 hours.

I also made several miracles which were observed from my family really.

-----

Therefore, I think

"He didn't do such big deals did he ?"


2018-10-08 "Somehow, looking at this boy in this photo, I want to hit him instinctively, because of his bad face. [長年日記]

In "Natsume Yuujincho (movie)", Nyanko-sensei is separated into three bodies,

The form of each separated nyanko-sensei become pretty little cat.

So I think

"Will I be able to be cute if I also separate it into 3 bodies ?"

At the moment,

"No way. Absolutely not"

I was convinced.

-----

Even when I was a child, I had never been used the adjective "cute".

For example. when I lived in college dormitory, my friend who looked at my photo album, he said,

"Somehow, looking at this boy in this photo, I want to hit him instinctively, because of his bad face.

He was talking about painful things against me.


2018-10-09 Unfortunately, there are certainly "children who can not win fight at all" in the world [長年日記]

I seriously argued that if we want to eliminate "bullying", we have to apply "the rules of the law on contact with the body" first.

We, adults are forbidden to touch others' bodies intentionally or negligently, regardless of the reason. Basically, "violent crime" is established only by that.

In other words, I am not satisfied with "parents appear in children's fighting", but apply criminal law to children's "bullying".

-----

Some people assert that "fighting is necessary for the growth process", however, the logic is just for the persons who

can sometimes win with a fight

or

take the winning percentage to even

Unfortunately, there are certainly "children who can not win fight at all" in the world

And it is "bullying" to try to fight such children.

-----

To eliminate bullying by law - Is this so nonsense?

It is a tough fact that there is an educational place that can not fulfill its function, and I do not have intention to blame it. I think that It cannot be helped.

What is unacceptable for children is not allowed for adults,

What is unacceptable for adults is not allowed for children

I think that this is just a common sense.


2018-10-10 "Well, you got bigger after a long time" [長年日記]

The other day, my relatives gathered for Buddhist event of my deceased father, after a long time.

However, I felt sorry that some people will only come for the Buddhist event from a distance.

As I have already told you many times, I personally do not put emphasis on the event.

(However, I know that the events are "meaningful" to the funeral)

So, I basically responded them to "there is no problem that you will be absent from the event".

However, some relatives, were seriously enthusiastic, and, to tell you the truth, It was not too much to say that I was pushed by the enthusiasm.

The host can not reject the enthusiasm, if the guest wishes to hold the ceremony.

Not only in Japan, but also all of the world, I bothered that many clashes of values are going on everyday about ceremonial occasions.

Set it aside,

-----

However, the dinner party after the event with the relatives was fun.

I remembered what they were very kind of me, when I was a child.

In this dinner party, some of them said,

"Well, you got bigger after a long time"

However, the meaning was completely different.

The children have already been here as a adult of more than half a century ages.

The meaning was transformed into "Is your health checks okay?" "Is there no problem about blood pressure?"

and , for me,

"Are you okay? Are you sleeping well? Can you have a meal enough? "

They seemed to be worried about my health.

When my wife said that

"My husband continues a diet experiment by his body"

At the moment, the worry changed a blame with the two octave voice.

"Stop it soon"

-----

I told them to the background that I had written columns about "diet" and I have just kept my weight measurement everyday. However they seemed not to stop blaming me.

I think that this was a rare case, but I could enjoy chatting with them.


2018-10-11 "he had a lot of foresight" [長年日記]

Last week, I sent "an illustration and postcard of Natsume Yujincho" to people who applied for them.

"People who do not need will be presented to those who want it" is a reasonable resource allocation.

In the past, there were abundant bulletin boards for such barter transfers.

When I was a child, in the city hall bulletin board, the monthly magazine's appendix, or the graduation album,

"address, name, telephone number was posted dignifiedly"

Personal information was opened disorderly

However, there was no infrastructure ( the Internet, cell-phone ) to abuse personal information.

In addition, since there was only one phone in the home in the first place, in order to access a minor it was necessary to break through the guardian's cabbage.

-----

By the way, I remember something about a graduation album.

After graduation, when Obon rest and New Year holidays come, I heard that there used to be a former boy who often called a girl of former classmates.

In a modern style, that was well called "matchmaking", poorly called "picking up"

At that time I was feeling uncomfortable, "he is an unconventional guy with unscrupulous behavior", however, turning now to thinking, I think

"he had a lot of foresight"

In the future, he may have witnessed the fact that personal information has enormous value, and he may have acted quickly.

Alternatively, he perceived that his value as an object of my romance and marriage, was very low at an early stage after graduation.

-----

"He was the same as mine"

I noticed an unpleasant truth.


2018-10-12 Immediately I ordered my family to "purchase 3 bucks" by LINE from the office, [長年日記]

At the blackout of week before last, I told you the story of "I was in trouble with a shortage of size C battery".

It might be enough to leave AA batteries in the radio, However, "leakage" problem occurs frequently, when leaving the batteries in the long-term,

After that, the slot of the battery rusted, the worst, the radio itself breaks down.

-----

Previously, In the Ebatas, we used batteries quite frequently, but recently we only use them for LED flashlights.

And its size is almost "AA 3" (Rarely AA 4 also exists).

So, AA batteries are quite abundant in our house.

-----

By the way, although batteries are different in size, in fact, AA and C have the same "height".

So, if you can "thicken" the girth of a AA battery, you can use it as a C battery.

"I thought it was a certain that converts the size to AA to C", and I could easily find it on Amazon, however,

"It was expensive."

Why do I have to pay 300 yen per just plastic adapter?

At home, I need at least six C batteries, I will have to pay 1800 yen as well.

In this case, buying AA is far cheaper.

-----

While thinking "I'm getting angry, and I was searching it on the net, I found ideal thing.

That's it.

This is 50 yen per adapter.

Immediately I ordered my family to "purchase 3 bucks" by LINE from the office,

-----

Two days later, my wife got this adapter at a 100 yen shop, and "single type C shortage problem" was ended.


2018-10-13 "Buddhism Calculation : BudCalc" [長年日記]

The other day I talked that the basic idea of Buddhism is "Receive the real world as it is, and make us easy".

However, I think

"Is it really so?"

Especially when you are looking at the score of TOEIC.

-----

In the world of computation, "modeling" is very important.

However, it is realistically impossible to reproduce the real world as it is.

However, thanks to the recent CPU speed of computers and lower price of storage media, we can use incredible amount of memory now.

As a result,

"To reproduce the real world to some extent in the computer"

becomes possible.

About this issue, there is a description on this page of "only artificial intelligence - making in a personal computer," only for me "Wonderland"

-----

I come to think that

"Simulation to move the real world as it is"

is a new calculation method based on Buddhism

If so, a field of a simulation program for generating a large number of objects, will be called

"Buddhism Calculation : BudCalc"

While thinking "the idea is not bad", I arrived at the station.


2018-10-14 I am reading "books I have to read" rather than "books I want to read". [長年日記]

Recently, I am reading "books I have to read" rather than "books I want to read".

If I did not receive a request for serialization, there are some books that I guess I did not get it about both "AI" and "work way reform".

In other words, for me,

"I will not read books nor output, unless there is anything to drive me off"

The thing to drive me is mainly "promise (meeting etc.)" "deadline" "time of delivery".

-----

Professor Hideo Itekawa, as a father of space development and rocket development in Japan, was the one who has continued his skill up in a way that "he will promise ahead of time, even if there is no confidence or confidence."

He became a cello performer, a ballet dancer, even when he had never experimented the jobs and tried to promise to show the performance, with thinking "If he does not keep your promise, he will bother the others"

"It is awesome"

I think that.

I do not have as much grade as Professor Itokawa Hideo, Well, still "determining the date and time before" is a good way to use for me.

-----

Everyone of teenagers should not believe irresponsible adult words "Do what you like."

Most of us do not know "what they like".

And most of our adults are not working "what they like" as a job.

"I started doing it, because it cannot be helped" -> "And I managed to do it" -> "It is troublesome to do other things"

We adults merely read that as "what we like" (Or we just do not notice it).

-----

I am reading "books I have to read" rather than "books I want to read".

I do not think that it is a bad thing.

To read books themselves is fun and sometimes it is useful, but it is not something you must do.


2018-10-15 Anyway, if I were told that "I am going to do my child again," I will flee with full power. [長年日記]

I talk about protections and human rights of children on a regular basis, however, It's not that I like children.

It is rather difficult for me to deal with children.

I will want to hook and kick children who run on a train, and,

I will change the cargo when a bunch of children rides on for school excursion.

I mean, in my mind,

there are difference between children as a concept and children as an entity.

In particular, I don't think that it is contradiction, or vice.

-----

Children are absolutely "deserve protections" for me.

The reason is "a society that children cannot feel happy" is "a society that all people cannot feel happy"

I don't have intention to sprinkle with fine phrases as the above.

In my case, when I was a child, I felt more unhappy overwhelmingly.

- classfellows who were childish, foolish and naive

- teachers who could not explain the background of meaningless school rule

- presidents who just speak abstract theory which is meaningless and not fun with collecting all the students.

Anyway, if I were told that "I am going to do my child again," I will flee with full power.

-----

For me, the reasons why children should be "protected" are

- they are important social components,

- they are producers and consumers,

- they are engines for keeping society changing according to the environment,

moreover,

at the moment, they do not know "yet" the weapons that protect themselves - how to use social welfare systems, the basic knowledge of the law, the means of escape from violence and abuse.

I think that this is "unfairness".

Separately, although I am not disadvantaged, I think "I feel bad".

I don't have so bad personality, with thinking that "the next generation can be unhappy because I was unlucky as a child,

If there are something like "misfortune production equipments"(In the case of children, school, friends and so on), I would like to "reform" them, and even if it is difficult, I think that I will "destroyed" them.

-----

I will do my best for children who "are protected as a concept".

I will expect your efforts for children who "are protected as a entity".


2018-10-16 "it is me, that I am standing and fighting against outrageousness in the world". [長年日記]

The reasons why I cannot enjoy television drama, are, for example, that I come to think easily,

- I will be just an official of bad magistrate's office who was killed by a white hat in samurai dramas.

- I will be a middle manager who deal roughly with a newcomer and do power harassment in office dramas

- I will be a stalker who sticks up to a heroin in love dramas

- I will be a lawyer who say a word for schmuck by using a dirty trick in court dramas.

-----

I am wondering why many people can come to think a convenient interpretation,

"it is me, standing and fighting against outrageousness in the world".

However, the reality proved different.

(To be continued)


2018-10-17 "People who are fighting" don't laugh about "other people who are fighting". [長年日記]

(Continuation from yesterday)

As long as we live a life without conscious mind.

we are going to victimizers against any person who tries to accomplish something with strong will,

I come to think about the above, so I cannot enjoy television dramas.

-----

"Fight!" is a song title of "Ms.Miyuki Nakajima".

"Your song about fighting the world, is going to be laughed by people who don't try to fight anything"

All people, life you, others and I who listen to the song, are

"people who don't try to fight anything"

I think that it is very important for all of us to notice the reality.

-----

"People who are fighting" don't laugh about "other people who are fighting".

Because "people who are fighting" know pains of "people who are fighting"

For example, peole who don't (can't) open their original theory, work and writing to the world, and

only criticize others or the works by SNS and electronic bulletin board, with pretending a critic or a moralist,

are typical "people who don't try to fight anything".


2018-10-18 To be clear, the concept of "masterpieces for all people" is an illusion. [長年日記]

Recently several types of harassment are entering the picture, and bit by bit, the concept of

"a harassment to compel anime and comics to juniors and others"

seems to be appearing.

This is called "content harassment" for the sake of convenience here ("Conhara")

Such harassment has hitherto been found in various fields ranging from books, songs, TV dramas to personal computer tools.

Everyone has a desire to "like their favorite things and share topics".

It is normal to think that they want to reach "sharing of topics" and "sharing of values".

-----

However, the root of this content harassment is, like

"He / she just does not know this work. As long as they know it, they surely like it"

a strong belief.

Moreover, the troublesome point of this harassment is that,

"Actually, there is a case that they come to like the content"

and,

"That possibility is not so low"

-----

On the other hand, the evaluation of a work (content) may change, at that point of contact with the work,

their age, degree of their knowledge and preference, reading comprehension, era background, even by weather and season,

The range of conditions that seems to be "the best!" is extremely narrow, and it is a rare case that the values will be shared by multiple people.

To be clear, the concept of "masterpieces for all people" is an illusion.

(Actually, I am a human who thinks that 90% of works of writers of Meiji and Taisho period are "fucking")

(To be continued)


2018-10-19 "Ebata is making a comical presentation with his sentences after knowing all the calculation results before starting writing" [長年日記]

Today, new my column is released, so I take a day off.

Let's turn the world by "Number"(52) : Work style reform(11) "

" "Calculation of devil" to understand nursing care market correctly

-----

Looking at the impression on my column on the net,

"Ebata is making a comical presentation with his sentences after knowing all the calculation results before starting writing"

is found, like that.

In this case, let's clearly explain.

"I do not have such a respectable" brain "that can perform such a thing."

-----

This time, when I reached to "Calculation of devil", I had already finished making plot and the drawing and I was writing a sentence.

"Oh, the god has come down", I sighed deeply.

This god, quite annoying me.

For most reasons, If "God will come down", I almost have to be rebuilt from the plot.

The figure can be reused, but almost all the sentences will be rewritten.

Moreover, in many cases, this god comes down at midnight on the day of the deadline (often around 1 o'clock in the AM).

-----

God said,

"Come on, about this calculation, if you add 4 lines about mortality overwrite routine to your simulator, it will be complete."

"Hmm? Do not you do it? Well, you don't do it. or you can not do it"

That God would make an unpleasant provocation.

While thinking "Damn!", I calculated the data one by one, while modifying the program, changing the mortality parameter, and repeating compiling and recalculating about 50 times.

By the end of calculation, the outside became bright.

I thought that "I will reconstruct the sentences from now", and I got fed up.

-----

"Ebata is making a comical presentation with his sentences after knowing all the calculation results before starting writing"

"Well, well",

I want to become such a writer, if possible.


2018-10-20 It is illogically, intuitively, discriminately, externally, with prejudice. [長年日記]

(Continuation from yesterday)

However, the further troublesome of this problem is that,

"People who do content harassment correctly recognize the background of above harassment"

That means,

"Anyway, trust me. Touch it once."

"It's OK only once, so please touch that work"

"If you don't like it I will not say anything anymore to you"

That comes out from deep feelings at the bottom of their heart.

You might think that "we can forgive them about these things", however,

this is also a fine harassment.

-----

You can understand easily about these problem from the view of "love affair", not "contents" itself.

"I don't know your preference, however he is a good guy absolutely. Trust me. Would you go out with him ? "

is a fine harassment. Everyone can understand that. This is a "matchmaking harassment"

-----

Human beings (and works as well) are whole one including both inside and outside.

We judge the work as a whole, not only the contents but also the appearance (cover, title) of the work.

It is illogically, intuitively, discriminately, externally, with prejudice.

(To be continued)


2018-10-21 "this book is great, let you try to read it" [長年日記]

(Continuation from yesterday)

I read my diary yesterday and noticed

Some kinds of people can use a phrase "Disgusting is disgusting".

I want to use it for works and person.

However, it is a little hard for me to use this phrase, because it seems to be "revealing ignorance"

I come to think how to use the another phrase, as a same effect,

"I disgust it illogically, intuitively, discriminately, externally, with prejudice."

To return to our subject.

Well, it is continuation of yesterday.

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These actions are not serious, between person in same position (for example, friend)

However, if the people is your boss, the story changes. if your boss said

"this book is great, let you try to read it"

and

if your boss asks you about the impressions of the book later again and again,

I hope that you can understand that this boss's behavior is a terrible power harassment.

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Indeed, I may have been forced from the superiors many times, "to read garbage-like content books and papers" many times.

I will read anything, if it is needed for my work. Because it is a work.

However it is not related to my work(for example, a book written by a boss), I take it with smile "thank you very much". And I throw it into a trash bin directly.

From this trauma, I cannot run away from a fear of "forcing my own work to others".

When I want to advertise my own work, I basically just use blogs or e-mails for unspecified majority, and I will restrict my will, even it is.

(To be continued)


2018-10-22 "Contents evangelist" [長年日記]

(Continuation from yesterday)

However, I will introduce you to a example, "to realize a rare usecase of "sharing a topic and a value", not by using "contents harassment"

I heard that a teacher of my daughter bought his favorite books for all students of her class at his own expense.

That is one of the books of "Mr. Simon Lehna Singh"

I don't know her teacher, but I think that I can talk with him familiarly.

The book is the best for me too, that gave me an impression from the bottom of my heart.

Of course, "the best" will not reach to most of them, and cannot reach really.

In face, my daughter dropped out of the book at the initial step. The book needs the hight intelligence of physical science and math.

Thus, unfortunately, most of the book are going to a trash box.

However, I think that the teacher thought his purpose would be completed, even if only one of the students was impressed by "the best".

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For only one person that nobody knows, the preparation of purchasing the books for all student of his class, is real one.

This is an ideal figure, that be antithetical to "contents harassment",

"Contents evangelist"


2018-10-23 "I used Shinkanse super express or airplane to go to a convenience store within two hundred meters from here." [長年日記]

I want to use an OSS GIS software, and I had spent much time at weekend for the research activities.

Above all, there is no information about the software.

It cannot be helped that there is no Japanese documents. However, why cannot I get English documents either?

I know that I can't complain about a free software in the OSS.

"Don't use it, if you complain"

If I get said it, I cannot argue against it.

Because it is really a just argument.

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I was going to be beyond bearing if I spend weekend time anymore, I bought a expensive technical book against my will.

By the way, there are strange book like, Economic Survey of Japan, Technology Survey of Japan, and Suicide Survey of Japan in my house.

However, I was about to cry because I could not find what I wanted to try in the expensive book.

There was nothing for it but to try the samples in the book, and to research information on the net. While doing them, I noticed

"Why is this data truncated here ?"

I tried to stop the the truncated function, I could succeeded in making a figure I wanted in just about no time.

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I almost cried that I had spent much time just for this procedure.

Taking this as an example,

"I used Shinkanse super express or airplane to go to a convenience store within two hundred meters from here."

"What a slight result even using much money and time !" however, this is "popular".

Thanks to this grand view of the trip, I can operate several functions of this GIS software.

However I wonder whether it pays or not.

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There are a lot of detour like them, in technology field.

To tell you the truth, I think that any route is a detour.

Some engineers think "this is a vain detour" and others become "irrationally defensive", It depends on their personality.

The former is right for a cost return, and the latter is right for a skill return.

Anyway, it is true that engineers has been tired from this "detour" everyday.


2018-10-24 "we don't look upon us as victimizers of power harassment" [長年日記]

A easy way to avoid to be a victimizer of power harassment, is not to have any "power".

However, it is very difficult.

From the view of not only "promotion" but "elder", "outsourcer", "customer", "indigenization"

In addition,

"rich", "stamina", and "intelligence", we will have a power.

However, it is nonsense that "we should give up specifying power harassment".

I think that we should specify that "I am a victimizer of power harassment" in order to understand power harassment.

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For me, I can look upon me as a victim, and I also can look upon me as a victimizer.

However, the problem is the ratio.

I feel "99:1" as victim vs victimizer.

However, from the objective viewpoint, everyone can understand that the ratio is nonsense.

As above, I am going to have a power with just living in daily life.

In principle, "50:50 plus and minus 15 (one sigma)" will be reasonable.

Even if I think about "contents of power harassment", "personality", "living environment" and "association", two sigma will be the limit.

However, the imbalance is significant from the number of articles and help desk of power harassment."

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The conclusions that are derived from the above,

"we don't look upon us as victimizers of power harassment"

and

"we never think that our existences cause power harassment"

(To be continued)


2018-10-25 Both physics and mathematics should be started with "acting cool" [長年日記]

(Continuation from yesterday)

Although story changes

Recently, the concept of "Schradinger's cat" and "Laplace's devil", quantum physics, and classical physics concepts are appearing briefly in animations and novels.

I think that using these terms easily, quietly without understanding the principle of the term, a fiery, ignorant, middle and morbid tide, is

"Big welcome"

for me.

Both physics and mathematics should be started with "acting cool"

like, me.

By this "acting cool", even one in 100 teenagers will be meaningful enough if it will be an opportunity to get interested in these disciplines.

To return to our subject.

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I think that "power harassment" should be understood by the concept of "Schradinger's cat"

To tell you the truth, "Schradinger's cat" is not enough.

I omit it because it will be long to explain, "Schledinger's cat" is simply that "whether a cat in the box is dead is unknown until opening the box".

In other words, neither poison gas (victimizers) nor cats (victims) are certified unless they are observed from the outside.

However, the essence of power harassment is "cat's half-killed" neither "cat's survival" nor "cat's death".

That means, we can not be certified unless we have to observe a fuzzy state "half alive and half dead".

"Open the box, look at the cat, and further investigate the biological response of the cat, it is finally certified"

_ P> (To be continued)


2018-10-26 Anyway, at this time, for the first time in my life I acquired the concept of "another person different from myself". [長年日記]

(Continuation from yesterday)

Well, the problem is, who is to certify "half-killed" state. Of course, this is only "cats themselves".

Because most of us do not recognize us as "a victimizer of power harassment". This is clear that they always look vacant when they are pointed their power harassment in TV news.

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The following story is true from

I remember being surprised when I was a primary school student, I received a complaint from a teacher that I was ぶlying a girl in class.

Because I only recognized the extent that I was playing with that girl.

However, this is a genuine, 100% "bully" as it is now.

I know now that my behavior, dialogue, everything else, they were progressive forms of "bully".

Anyway, at this time, for the first time in my life I acquired the concept of "another person different from myself".

At this time, if the teacher did not point out that "I am doing bullying" to me, I think that acquisition of this concept was a later time To be honest, I will zoologically.

Of course, I have not been pointed out "publicly" from the outside at least as a perpetrator of bully.

However, in fact, I do not know what is going on - even if I have killed many cats in the box.

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However as I grew older, I turned to the victim side of bully.

Apparently, high school students like so-called "have a opinion about politics and society" had been certified as an object of bullying from classmates and others

Is that what we call "a man who does not read the air" now ?

However, since I was "lonely" from that time, I could not even feel "air".

Because of it, I was free and unhappy.

However, even though I never did anything to them, they have been attacking me (bully), just because they do not like it,

(To be continued)


2018-10-27 Adults are abhorrently narrower and unreasonable than you think. [長年日記]

(Continuation from yesterday)

Not only students, but also teachers, hurt me who was a teenager at the time, because of their unreasonable behaviors.

By the way, adults (especially teachers) do not like being "refuted" by children.

If you are a teenager, I will warn you.

Adults are abhorrently narrower and unreasonable than you think.

Moreover, they also have unnecessary powers that do not match their abilities.

There are quite a few "child adults than children", and that "child adults over children" are more dangerous than ordinary children.

Please be careful enough.

Let's get back to the subject.

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Well, in that way, I have never gone to the high school after graduation. It is horrible to call it "alma mater".

I was throwing away the information on the alumni association in the garbage bin in 1 second.

For me, there is no problem at all in high school, even if it disappears from memory.

In high school, those who brought me unreasonable bully, maybe not remember me, however, I still remember their names and faces even now, and I still do not forget revenge on them.

(As long as the dead do not appear) I still think now that such a high school will disappear by fire or earthquake.

I am an adult who am abhorrently narrower and unreasonable.

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This is my case, however these are mushy characteristic of bullying and harassment, including power harassment, of

- "Asymmetry"

and

- "Invisibility"

(To be continued)


2018-10-28 And the cats that cannot be observed will die. [長年日記]

(Continuation from yesterday)

Let's return to the story of the cat.

Even weak cats will not be able to observe unless they raise "barks" while being weak.

If they do not work crying once, the should do same actions even twice or three times. If not, they cannot be observed.

And the cats that cannot be observed will die.

For many people, "crying cats" are out of scope, cannot be heard. In short, it doesn't matter.

On the other hand, "a people who killed a cat" continues to live their days without recognizing the "killing a cat".

Most of the people in the world, including me, continue to kill the cat.

It can not be helped because "crying cat" can not be heard.

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Thus, my feeling of "99:1" as victim vs victimizer, is coming.

However, from the objective viewpoint, everyone can understand that the ratio is nonsense.

Again, I say

"we don't look upon us as victimizers of power harassment"


2018-10-29 "Well. I think that it would be better for your son to graduate from college." [長年日記]

I lived in a boarding house during my college life, It is a distant area far from the university, and very bad transportation, for example, the departure time of last bus is 15:40.

# This is a story of those days. When I visited a few years ago, it was a big new residential area, and the subway line was built.

I have never delinquent rent for a 4-year boarding period, in addition, the landlord's favor, I was allowed to use the main house's bath every other day.

This is a story at the boarding house.

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One night (at around 23 o'clock midnight), the landlord came to visit and knocked on my room.

I got consultation.

"My son wants to quit college. what should I do?"

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Needless to say, I was an active college student at the time.

It was lucky that, I had happy days. I could immerse myself in researching interesting subjects, with friends who were motivated to study.

I knew the feeling of "wanting to quit university" "exists" and I understand that feeling. However I was too lucky to understand the feeling at the time.

And then, the words I spoke then surprised myself.

"Well. I think that it would be better for your son to graduate from college."

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I am still writing fun ideas and remarks in blogs and serial series.

However, when I was a college student, I was keeping on with words, far more radical (extreme) and avant-garde, than what I am saying now.

The saying surprised me, "What commonsense, obsolete, and bore words are!".

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I think that the inside of my head at that time was like this.

(1) Basically, we can graduate by attending a lecture properly, taking notes, receiving tests and writing a report (graduation thesis).

(2) Whatever the grades, once we can graduate from college, the title "Bachelor's Degree" comes along without fail.

(3)The title of "Bachelor Degree" is something that is acceptable for anyone in the world.

(4) First of all, what do the public think about human beings who have abandoned the above (1) while having good luck of passing the university and a happy environment where students can continue their studies

"I will not forgive him/her"

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Of course, I am well aware that the concepts (1) - (4) above are too simplistic ideas.

My girls taught me "hell" named "school" in a word that bleeds blood.

And I should have thought of the hatred feelings for the "school" that still remains in mine.

When I receive consultation with these cases, I have to

"make judgements taking comprehensive consideration of the qualities of the individual, human relationships, mental conditions, etc."

In conclusion, I think that "I was an active college student was inappropriate as a consultant."

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Well, I am repeatedly stating extreme remarks from my daily life. However at the root, I am just a "petit bourgeois" being bound by

"common sense"

So, for me, "it is annoying to have too much expectation".


2018-10-30 "Tools and humans are united and become one" [長年日記]

In animated "Beatless", Heroine's Humanoid Interface Elements (HIE) humanoid robot "Lacea" makes a consistent doctrine

"Tools and humans are united and become one" w

and she is active in the story.

She says that the idea that "human beings are dominated by AI" is nonsense.

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I can not write a column and I can not calculate what I want to try, without a PC.

Without a PC, I think that I did not do any reckless attempt to "draw illustrations by myself".

I can contact dozens of people at the same time by email, and I can also send the necessary files.

I can open my works on my homepage, and I can also make friendships with the works as triggers.

My PC replaces a lot of things that I can not be handled in my brain.

For even matters without my intelligence, the PC will help me.

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For me who lived with a personal computer since the age of 19, the doctrine of "Lacea"

"Tools and humans are united and become one"

is a common sense, just as air exists.

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However in the world, about this concept of "Tools and humans are united and become one",

Some people can realize it

and

other cannot realize it

That is a serious problem.

(To be continued)


2018-10-31 "It can not be helped that elderly people do not have IT literacy because they were no chance to get IT education". [長年日記]

(Continuation from yesterday)

I do not think such "people who can not realize it" are "lazy" or "irresponsible".

This is simply a matter of "environment."

Dealing with the same line, for people who can use e-mail for tomorrow's eating (people who always use e-mail at work everyday) and people who rarely use cell phones, is

"violence"

It is no exaggeration to say.

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However, on the other hand, from my viewpoint, works that do not use IT like e-mails, are "unimaginably inefficient".

Inefficiency conference. for example "do not distribute agenda beforehand", "do not contact the issue in advance by e-mail", "do not issue a reminder of the meeting" and "do not share decisions with e-mail etc." are

for me,

"violence"

It is also no exaggeration to say.

Now I am feeling to be divided into two, between "works (in company) that use IT to the bone's mind, and "works desperately that lack IT literacy (Neighborhood Association)"

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The "theory" like this should be developed on the side of the weak.

I don't have to receive unnecessary criticism.

But this time, I do not be afraid of criticism and I would like to develop "theory" from my point of view of the stronger

"It can not be helped that elderly people do not have IT literacy because they were no chance to get IT education".

I'd like to validate whether the "theory" is true or not.

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As a premise, I (Tomoichi Ebata) has not received "IT literacy education" from kindergarten to graduate school graduation. First of all, please remember this.

(To be continued)