Previously, I heard the story from a junior co-worker that "being abused motivated him".

I felt that this was the first contact to an alien.

I was surprised that "He is a real human being in the world".

In my case, I cannot accept any abuse.

There are two patterns that I can react against an abuse.

"getting down" or "resenting".

I could learn a lot from my faults, but I could not learn anything from scolding me.

So nobody should scolds me.

If you scolds me, my operating capability is going down dynamically.

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Some people might be fed up with saying "this is a opinions of almost 50 years old man isn't it?".

Unfortunately my mind has stopped since I was a teenager.

Even when I got a job, got married, had children, there have been no progress for me.

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In opposition, I can work well even if I am praised.

Sometimes I can get an amazing new record of my operation capability.

So I want you to praise me, and I can generalise it easily.

So to speak, I believe that

"Everybody in the world must want to praise them."

(To be continued)

(Continuation from yesterday)

Would you try to encourage both person and company with praise ?

Recently I cannot praise a company too much.

It is "Suntory Co."

New beers that Suntory Co. has presented since two month ago, as a "Craft Select" series, are "too delicious".

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When I lived in the U.S for my work, I noticed great taste of ale beer.

After that, I went to local breweries every weekend, and asked them to bottle beer. Everyday I drunk and drunk the beer.

Unfortunately, lager beer is overwhelmingly popular in Japan. If I happen to find some ale beer, the cost is more than twice and I don't think the taste is good.

However, the ale beer of Suntory Co. was really delicious.

For me, many Japanese beers are not so good, because they becomes prolixity and biter. But the tastes of the Suntory beers are really good from the first sip to the last drop.

When these beers went out at convenience stores, I was really close to tears.

But I has been happy since I knew the "craft beer" series as the above.

These beers of Suntory Co. are reason of my life absolutely.

Every night, I am struggling against witting a patent application, with thinking these beers.

(To be continued)

(Continuation from yesterday)

Though most Japanese seem to like larger beer, ale beer market must be smaller than it.

In fact, my wife had not drunken ale beer because of its biter taste in the US.

So I ask Suntory co. to present "craft select" not for Japanese, but just for me.

I will say "your cooperation is greatly appreciated."

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From now, I want to start to write what I feel glad and happy in my daily life, and don't hesitate to send an appreciation message.

"If I criticise one, I praise up another,"

I am going to keep this "sense of balance".

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I have a habit to investigate some past opinions and other messages of special persons who blame my works with verbal abuses.(Sometimes I use a special analysis tool)

On investigation, basically such persons

cannot do anything except of blaming anybody anything

(Of course I cannot find their own works)

I feel umbrage against the blame, but it is difficult to start to argue against them.

Because what they can do is to just blame anything in their life.

It is a piece of cake to blame anything without foundation and logic.

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In opposition to the above, "praising up" seems to be difficult for anyone.

For the first time, we have to find an object to praise up, and evaluate it after comparing to others.

I cannot say that it is easy.

So, I want to give an appreciation to the beer company with an expression of my happiness, according the company persons every courtesy.

"Good!" click is not bad, but "words" are good method to send our appreciation to other people.

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If I try to send a message of "I love you" to my wife with "Good!" click,

"She absolutely get mad with me."

I can bet it.

For the first time in a few years, I begin to write an patent application. But in this case, I should pay an attention for me.

"I write it for me in the future."

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Contents of patent application are like to be spells or cryptograms for many people in the world.

Even if you were "a special person who has special knowledge in the technical field", you could not understand the patent without your special efforts.

To make matter worse, the application style seems to to be out-of date.

As a rule, you can use monochrome lineal drawings in the figures, and normal characters in the documents.

"linked documents" is not allowed and "tab jump" is prohibited.

Of course, you cannot use any animations and movies.

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But these "rules" are not bad for us.

At first, everybody can access any patent application, only to print them. No special tool is needed.

No capabilities to make full use of presentation tools, which can bring someone a surprise.

I think that these rules make fair application for patent in Japan.

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But the problem is not the point.

The problem is that

"I cannot understand the patent that had been invested by myself".

(To be continued)

For the first time in a few years, I begin to write an patent application. But in this case, I should pay an attention for me.

"I write it for me in the future."

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Contents of patent application are like to be spells or cryptograms for many people in the world.

Even if you were "a special person who has special knowledge in the technical field", you could not understand the patent without your special efforts.

To make matter worse, the application style seems to to be out-of date.

As a rule, you can use monochrome lineal drawings in the figures, and normal characters in the documents.

"linked documents" is not allowed and "tab jump" is prohibited.

Of course, you cannot use any animations and movies.

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But these "rules" are not bad for us.

At first, everybody can access any patent application, only to print them. No special tool is needed.

No capabilities to make full use of presentation tools, which can bring someone a surprise.

I think that these rules make fair application for patent in Japan.

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But the problem is not the point.

The problem is that

"I cannot understand the patent that had been invested by myself".

(To be continued)

(Continuation from yesterday)

The other day I wrote that after applying for a patent application, a juror of the Patent Office is going to send the notification of reasons of refusal to me after two years.

It means that they say "No".

In order to change their impression, I have to set up our opinions to them or change contents of the application. Anyway the actions annoy me.

To make matter worse,

"I can understand my invention I made before."

I also said that I who was in two years ago is not me in the present.

Generally speaking, he is a complete stranger.

The patent application of this complete stranger is absolutely nonsense.

Why this foolish guy could not write his invention explicitly?

I have to read his application with my anger.

(To be continued)

Today, a new column is released, so I take a day off.

"A nonfiction story of online fraud (the 1st part)"

"The day when "a network researcher" encountered a cyberscam"

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Reading the manuscript of 26 pages of whole story in 15 minutes,

Saying "Ebata-san! I could tell you nothing! I am impressed!!"

The junior fellow who had started to talk about his fraud accident in Europe,

has existed.

About ten years ago, my company research institutes were divided two sites.

The moving time between these two sites was almost 1.5 hours, and the coworkers of both sites annoyed the moving.

About persons who didn't know the place of above background, the appointed place troubles were daily happening.

So when I informed the place to attendances of a meeting, I made an e-mail as follow.

=============================================

- There are TWO our research institutes.

- About this meeting, the palace is.. ,and the following are the map and the transportation guide.

- I strongly hope, you might be careful for not only the time but also THE PLACE.

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I used to insert the above lines three times in my mail at the beginning of a sentence, at the middle of a sentence, and at the end of a sentence.

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But a call was coming to me, as follow.

about ten minutes past the start time for the meeting.

Hello, Ebata-san. I cannot find "the east building" in your mail"

"Well, it is natural"

"Let me see. Would you please start to walk about 20km distance to the South ?"

Of course, I could not to say that, and I sighed and sighed again.

(To be continued)

(Continuation from yesterday)

But it was no problem.

The worst case was to get a response of "I am very sorry, but I am going there soon"

Other persons had already been here, so it was beyond the joke to ask them to stay here.

I could not come back home even when it was early-evening at that time ( especially when I was a promoter of the meeting).

The real reason to do my utmost to say "You don't have to come here if you are in trouble" is

"Your efforts annoy me."

But he could not understand the above my intention.

Though you might say "why don't you tell him the fact?", it was difficult for me, as a middle-level manager.

Because the saying is likely to tell him that "I don't need you in this meeting"

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I don't want to think, however,

"I have annoyed someone to do same thing"

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I really "love" these engineers who are going to fulfill their responsibility all over creation.

But I sometimes become to "hate" them.

Of course, it is a rare case.

I have often told you a story that "accident resulting in injury or death" is "a result of accidental action, that even the person in-question in oneself cannot control ".

In fact, it it true, and I cannot help but thinking it like that.

And, as usual, I think that this is a sort of protest, which the hopeless victims try it against unrelieved society.

Above all, I was a person like the above.

I am afraid that few people can understand that a fear of "my legs was putting my body down the station platform against my will"

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But,

A mid-night of the other day, when I was too exhausted and was likely to vomit, I got involved in an "accident resulting in injury or death" that was going to be impossible to come back home.

I felt a flame blazing instantly, and I came to think of the word in my mind

"suicide bombing"

I was surprised at what I was.

At the moment, I recovered myself soon, and tried to remember recent events.

(To be continued)

(Continuation from yesterday)

"This morning, I watched a man, jumping in the rails."

"What?"

The trains were delayed by an accident resulting in injury or death at the day too , so I had to rush in the meeting room.

To begin with, all people in the room screamed with surprise, when hearing his story.

(I hear that some person should meet such tragedy stage several times, but I have not experimented that.)

"A...and?"

"Well, the man got out of trouble because the train could stop in front of him."

"What was he doing after that?"

"He stood up, began to walk briskly, and got away from the point.

"What on earth?"

The story was beyond the reach of my imagination.

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"He sat down in the place and had the air of abstraction"

or

"He gave a strange sound in rampage or keening something"

were expected circumstances of mine.

But according to the situation of "getting away from the point silently", I guessed that

"This guy was concerned about appearances against even this mess situation"

Of course, I didn't watch the place, and this guy might have come to him at the moment.

So I know well that I don't have to talk without enough information, however,

This story infuriated me perfectly.

(To be continued)

(Continuation from yesterday)

I heard that only human being has a concept of "suicide".

So, all of us have to understand that any suicide is a sort of accident or sick at the bottom of hear.

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On the other hand, Japan is a "suicide" giant in the world.

Nationality, prejudice against mental disease, and

We Japanese has no background to prohibit "suicide" by religion of Christian and Islam,

and we might have special effectiveness from TV and movie media of "Chuushingura" and "Kamikaze suicide squad" for every years.

So I am afraid that we have no ultimate weapons to stop these "suicide" in the present.

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Anyway, what I should do now is that

I have to grow up my inner strength and tolerance, not to explode in anger against the yesterday's story.

I am sorry that I get late for the updating diary.

At weekend, I always busy for something, so I put the diary on the back burner.

The worst case is "a new type of fatigue is coming, even it has not been not registered yet"

I think "writing a column during whole weekend" and "coming back to my country house with desktop PC" are sorts of relaxation or refreshing.

"Now they transform one items of getting more and more tired."

Now the "fatigue free points" becomes zero, because not of "plus minus zero" but of "minus minus and minus".

In my case, I become to feel fatigue even if I don't do anything.

That is like a "heavy debtor" of fatigue.

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Like this time, if there is a person who thinks

"The railroad tie seems to be cool, so I can sleep well with the pillows"

As for me, I cannot blame them.

Today, a new column is released, so I take a day off.

"A nonfiction story of online fraud (the 2nd part)"

"Crib-note for counter-attack to retain bank as an ally"

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After my explanation of an illustration image,

advising me about light, standing point, face angle, sys shot and facial expression in detail, and

trying to snap a shot of the column of this series

such a senior daughter of my family

has existed.

I think I am happy, because I am given a lot of change to present my thoughts through some Web media. And I often come to think that

"I cannot control the popularity of my contents"

A work, that I think, think and think a problem with feeling my black cells melting, was no popular with readers.

The other work, I thought , was not enough to consider, and broken logic and I released fearfully, got enormous page views.

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Especially, I think the popularity of "diet series" is going down.

I want to make clear of "true mechanism of diet (false of diet)" logically, mathematically and objectively. But,

"My passion cannot come up to you."

(To be continued)

(Continuation from yesterday)

Recently I have chances of interviews for some women who work for development or sale of mathematical software or health care in hospital.

According to their talks, I noticed that I have misunderstood that what dieter were expecting.

I become to know that they are expecting

No logic, no math and no data

Abnormal, miracle and easy

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What I have done is likely to preach materialism to persons of "dietism" so-called.

"Marxism to Christians" ... seems to be difficult to understand.

In the TDL, a foolish person who points an accusing finger at Micky Mouse with crying " a human body is in that "

What I have done is almost same of the above, I think.

So I am sorry but, it cannot help that my columns become less popular.

To tell you the truth, keeping out of my things, I am sorry for ladies and gentlemen in the editorial department.

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However, Mr. Chief editor and Ms. lady in charge said that

"Ebata-san, you can write anything if you can use numbers"

absolutely at the previous meeting.

My series columns, which are characteristic of using "Number", has a theme of "trying explanations about everything in the world", excluding ambiguous talks.

Now I tried to explain about two difficult problems from the viewpoint of mathematics , that is said "Fermat's last theorem" in the diet world,

- partial diet (for example, we can lose only weight of waist)

- turn of partial diet (for example, we have to lose only bust of waist first when we diet)

The other day, I could finish writing and submitting it with relief.

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When I presented my research...calculation results to my senior daughter last night, she suddenly asked me a question.

"Papa. What is "A cup", "B cup" of brassiere eventually ?"

"That means, to tell you the truth, I could know it first in this writing, is a difference between a woman's top bust size and under bust size, and is divided by 2.5cm ..."

"Why does her father explain the definition of brassiere cup to her ?"

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Dear her mother, friends and school administration. I hope that you are going to expand general knowledge, you should show her.

Today, a new column is released, so I take a day off.

"A nonfiction story of online fraud (the 2nd part)"

"What is police doing against cyber fraud"

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To tell you the truth, I am shamed on the photo on the top of my web site, and I want to back away as soon as possible.

When I finished writing it, I got mad at the fraud, and I didn't feel anything.

If you want to read the columns, I am appreciated to hastening to do it.

I make a picture like that.

Please feel free to use it.

The use conditions are

- No need to display credit(name of Ebata)

- No profit

- No modification

In short, I don't like that someone uses this photo

for another purpose, or

for money.

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I am afraid that I cannnot express the above conditions by "Creative Commons".

The other day, I got my junior daughter try a simple programming, and I confirmed that she had a sense, like that she could find a bug of the program.

So, I gave her a math analysis software for her independent research during summer vacations.

I had a plan to make her try a simulation of temperature change of my home in the midsummer from the viewpoint of thermodynamics.

"Fu,fu,fu..."

"Their researchers are going to be greater than those of ordinal junior and senior high school students."

I had already prepared for an interview from news media as a father of math girl or analysis girls.

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I knew that there were no independent research in their school.

"Oh my gawd!"

Summer vacation without independent research ?

Present educational front and Ministry of Education, Culture, Sports, Science and Technology. What are you think about this topic?

"If you only think about a independent research, every day of the summer vacation of yours becomes depressed"

This is a right figure of the summer vacation of right junior and senior high school students?

(To be continued)

(Continuation from yesterday)

That aside,

Though I purchased the software, "I don't understand how to use it".

Daughters cannot begin to use it, that I cannot explain.

So, their parent is studying how to use it with drinking whiskey little by little at the midnight.

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This is a study.

Basically I like study.

Strictly speaking, I like any study in the world,

even if it is not for the purpose of score or acquisition of a qualification

I went to a movie of "a bee of the heavens".

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When I was a research engineer before becoming the chief, I read this original book.

I remember the day before I sent seven PCs into the big company of Aichi pref, in order to hold the large-scale demonstration.

At the night, I went to the downtown ,leaving the budget hotel, and I bought the book.

Thanks to the book, I had to struggle against sandman during the demonstration.

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To tell you the truth, I am a amateur about atomic bombs and nuclear power plants, however, the reason I could write about them is for following two books.

- "Fire of god"

- "A bee of the heavens"

Well, let it go.

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I am convinced that we can control any nuclear power plants under safe condition with our intentions eventually.

But we also are mentally prepared for repeating the disaster of 3.11.

How many times should we face the tragedy ?

I think that might be the same times of airplane and train hazard in human history.

(To be continued)

(Continuation from yesterday)

"Absolute safe control system does not exist absolutely."

I know it well.

Control systems kill human being.

They must kill us.

Airplane and trains are growing up, killing people.

Only "atomic energy" cannot be an exception.

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I am a person who is on the side of control system, and I am hammered in fierce sense of values for "security" and "human life" thoroughly.

For example,

I have been rejected some "new system" that I had proposed in my company.

"Ebata. if you want to insist that the new system which you suggest are absolutely safe, prove and demonstrate it logically and mathematically"

It is said in my field "control system"

"Probatio diabolica"

The new system exists in my mind (or in the patent application), so there is no way to prove and demonstrate "the absolute safety with the existing system.

But this is a common sense in my field, and I have to continue working in the common sense.

For example,

The system is going to stop anything, even if the commutation messages are cut off for 1/100 second only.

It is not a story of "nuclear plant systems".

It is the story of "the vehicle" which we use for commuting and attending school routinely.

In spite of the design effort of control systems, our expectation is always betrayed and control systems continue killing people anywhere in the world.

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About my hypnosis of "absolute safe control system does not exist absolutely."

Only one counterexample is enough for me.

"There is a year that no railway accident, no plane accident, and no plant accident happen in year-end news"

(To be continued)

(Continuation from yesterday)

A movie of "a bee of the heavens".

It was really splendid.

It is beyond all my imagination that they can make the perfect movie from the original book beautifully.(Higashino-san, original write had said "the picturization was impossible")

Not to say Higashino-san, all actors and actress, especially Motoki-san, Eguch-san was perfect.

Of course I thank for the effort of the movie staffs heartily.

Such a movie must come out more.

I think that new era should be coming that we know atomic principle (including the risk), and nuclear power plant (only the difference between light water reactor and heavy-water reactor at least), like how to make curry and rice.

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The remainder of mine, is

movie of "fire of God"

If I watch the movie, I cannot regret it.

Though I am on diet and I refrain from coming frequently, "Hokkyoku Ramen" is the most stress-relieving thing in my mind.

"Hokkyoku Ramen" is very delicious, but it also has a side effect.

That is a intense diarrhea ,coming about after one hour. (I have named it "Hokkyoku-Ramen disaster")

If we cannot arrive at my home or buildings with restroom, the tragedy is coming.

Especially, I have to walk a pass through a small grove from the nearest station to my house. Even if the "Hokkyoku-Ramen disaster" happens, an inexpressible scourge becomes unavoidable.

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In addition, this intense diarrhea seems to have a effect of fragment elimination of alimentary system, so

my weight looses after having "Hokkyoku-Ramen".

This means that "Hokkyoku-Ramen" has a diet effect in very short term(I don't recommend it).

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But the above is just a demerit of beginners of "Hokkyoku-Ramen".

For me, as a "Hokkyoku-Ramen master", it is a story of "fire on the other side of the river".

Getting stomach trouble is an unlikely circumstance for "Hokkyoku-Ramen master",

I thought the above

until the other day.

(To be continued)

(Continuation from yesterday)

One day I thoroughly enjoyed "Hokkyoku-ramen" after a long absence.

I could get a new book I wait and enjoy "reading alone dinner" at the corner (slightly tight), and went back home.

I am a "Hokkyoku-ramen master" to be generally accepted.

I cannot dare cause a tragic incident.

Still without neglecting caution, I tried to "held out" before leaving the wicket of the last station.

"It is O.K."

I was convinced of security and just left the wicket.

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When I felt the sign of the first impact, I was less that 1km from the station, beyond long stairs.

I felt a dim dull pain in the abdomen.

But, this was not virtually in the caution system with a smaller thing as an aftershock.

However, the second pain was coming after ten feet walking.

I thought this was not good symptom even the pain was not serious.

You know, a call of nature about diarrheal is not coming by linear trend.

For instance,

"1、1、1、2、3、9、40、95、burst"

like exponential rate.

(To be continued)

(Continuation from yesterday)

This time, what I paid an attention was the short period between the first and the second pain wave.

I had already read off the burst time from the catastrophic function I had made in my mind, using the first and the second scale of pain and the times.

And the burst point was pointed by a red pin on GoogleMAP.

That was 100 meters beyond the entrance of wooded area, and the half way point of between the station and my house.

"I have to decide this just now"

After looking up the station, shining on the hill, I carried out the course inversion 180 degrees.

Now, I called this strategic turning pont,

"Hokkyoku Return"

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While they climbed the long stairs, the third, the fourth wave was coming in succession. I was convinced that outbreak of the catastrophe was not so far.

However, if only I hurry up my step, the burst time was shorten. In addition, there is the aspect of the psychological warfare on this stage.

As I approached the station, I gave me a suggestion "the station was farther". I was going to prevent a sudden collapse.

Entering the automatic ticket gate at the station, loosing my belt and making my pants disclosure immediately, I just broke into the compartment of the restroom.

And an unexpectedly dangerous stage was coming after a few second, I call "last seconds" into the compartment. The burst of the accident is likely to happen during the period.

(To be continued)

(Continuation from yesterday)

Thus, I could avoid a tragedy of the burst to do "Hokkyoku-Return" based on scientific good judgement.

Making an analysis of this successful elements in a calm manner, this is that

"I am an engineer"

After all, I can recommend a occupation of "engineer" for high adaptive value of common daily life beyond the reach of the job range.

In order to make a success like "Hokkyoku-Return", I want younger person think an evaluate alternatives, if they are worried about their career path.

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But I have to admit my "easygoing".

I didn't consider a existence of "Second impact" at that time.

I relaxed my guard because of avoiding "First impact". (The detail is omitted)

"Unexpected circumstances"

In order to understand the real meaning of the word, I think that I should feel pain.

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So I think that that movie is "must-see".

Right and wrong, I hope you will go to a movie theatre.

"Children know a danger of bee after the bee stings. The imagination without pain is just a sweet dream"(A bee of heaven)

Today, a new column is released, so I take a day off.

"Let's turn the world by "Number" Diet (19) Segmentised diet is possible ? (the 1st half)(

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The junior fellow who appeared in this column and said the following

"In conclusion, your column has any love at all. "

has existed.

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Recently, The stories of "A bee of heaven", "Hokkyoku-Ramen disaster" might hit your mind, and some people gave me a mail.

The topics of "Tel Aviv business trip report" and "Importance of common daily attitude against nuclear power plant" are interesting for me, and I could enjoy reading them.

I have already told the same story again and again, and regretted it,

"I should have left for Afghanistan on our wedding honeymoon, even if my wife didn't want it."

Though my wife probably doesn't accompany me, I have a lot of places to visit, for example, "Tel Aviv", "Gaza strip","Cuba (Old Strategic nuclear weapons site about 50 years ago)", "Panmunjon, "Sarajevo", "Africa"

(To be continued)

Today, a new column is released, so I take a day off.

For two days continuously

"Let's turn the world by "Number" Diet (19) Segmentised diet is possible ? (the final)

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The junior fellow who appeared in this column and said the following

"In conclusion, your column has any sensitivity at all. "

has existed.

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(Continuation from yesterday)

At the same time, I am afraid that I have to face something annoying anywhere, so I don't want to go either.

In order to solve this dilemma, some compelling power is good for me.

For example, "business trip".

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So dear Ms./Mr. executives.

Ebata's threshold against going to these places with troublesome is relatively low.

Of course, I cannot work without technical issues.