The other day, I wrote that I offered the study of "game theory" as her summer free research to my junior daughter.
She seemed have presented the study at her junior school.
Some papers that her classmates wrote about the impression, left on the dining table, and I read them.
"Very easy to understand it"
"I think I could get the "game theory" perfectly"
"The examples were fine".
Their memo includes the above three phases or the combination.
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I felt ill.
"Really? Is that real impressions of junior school student?"
If I were a student of the 6th grade, I would written
"I didn't know what is what"
"I could not understand what she was talking at all".
"She put on airs"
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At that time, I noticed suddenly,
"Thus, Japanese workers are produced now on this way.”
O.K.
I can certain that Japanese education systems are controlled and managed correctly today.
(Continuation from yesterday)
I heard that only human being has a concept of "suicide".
So, all of us have to understand that any suicide is a sort of accident or sick at the bottom of hear.
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On the other hand, Japan is a "suicide" giant in the world.
Nationality, prejudice against mental disease, and
We Japanese has no background to prohibit "suicide" by religion of Christian and Islam,
and we might have special effectiveness from TV and movie media of "Chuushingura" and "Kamikaze suicide squad" for every years.
So I am afraid that we have no ultimate weapons to stop these "suicide" in the present.
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Anyway, what I should do now is that
I have to grow up my inner strength and tolerance, not to explode in anger against the yesterday's story.
Today, new my column is released, so I take a day off.
Let's turn the world by "Number" Accident resulting in injury or death (34) "
"Dutifully of the railway company, from the analysis result of that "delays in the injury" is not a lawsuit"
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"You don't put your heart and soul into the number"
The junior researcher of mine said that,
has existed.
(Continuation from yesterday)
If this mail continues everyday, the members of the project are not really tolerable.
It makes sense that all members come to feel hate and disgust against this type of management .... (restating) Ebata himself.
However I also open the mail with even the feeling of hate and disgust, nobody can say something openly against me.
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Of course, I have to continue my efforts for this mail governance.
For example, I will add an amusing "small talk", which is Ebata's daily accident or my family's failure story at the bottom of my mail.
Like the style of "mail magazine", I will avoid that my mail is doomed to be scrapped toward a trash box automatically,
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However, there is also a problem with this method.
Ebata: "I think I have already told you the matter many times by e-mail,"
Junior: "I'm sorry, I have a habit of reading the Ebata-san's e-mail from the bottom from, so I skipped the contents."
After hearing that story, I also had to to change the place of "small talk" every time.
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In this way, even if it is "mail governance (e-mail politics)", there are quite a lot of things that I think deeply "politics is still difficult".
When a journalist was asked his comment about a conflict against Narita Airport, "Sanrizuka conflict" so called, by a press reporter, the journalist asked the reporter, adversely
"Which do you want a comment of "pro" or "con" ?"
I heard the story when I was a high school student.
(Now I cannot find the name of this journalist and I feel confused. If you know, please let me know)
By the way,
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If I am asked to write a column by anyone, and even if it is
about "con" or "pro" of nuclear power plants,
about "con" or "pro" of non-complaints of copyright,
I am confident that I can write more than ten pages soon.
According to these topics, I read a lot of books, materials and numerical data, and have too many tips to argue them.
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There are "still" talk-shows, feature article and news about Artificial Intelligent(AI)
I am wondering,
"Why am I offered by a TV company to join the program?"
I am serious.
(To be continued)
(Continuation from yesterday)
When I got down to the living room on the first floor and explained to the family (wife, daughters,) about the process and the "numbers", all of them said to me "Question!".
Eldest daughter: “Daddy. The numbers are too optimistic.”
Junior daughter: "Reproductive technology is different from IT technology."
Wife: "Currently, there is no legislation for same-sex marriage in Japan"
(By the way, all of our family are "same-sex marriage supporters" (Though, there is no fact that I have "brainwashed"))
I also thought “their opinions are reasonable"
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However, I have added an unprecedented possibility when deriving this "subjective value".
"Bio hacker"
A bio hacker is a knowledgeable person or researcher who tries to "hack" "living organisms" or "genes".
By the way, "hacker" here means not the so-called "cracker" that damages society or individuals, but the original meaning ("advanced expert", in turn, "mania", "nerd") is.
By the way, I am one of the people who thinks “Every engineer should be self-identification of hackers".
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Bio technology may not be able to be discussed in the same way as IT technology, but engineers around 1970 should have thought the same way.
"Computers are occupancy of only some organizations, such as nations and large corporations, that have enormous funds and power.
Computer hardware and software (especially the operating system (OS)) were still the company's occupancy, even though it was not a complete monopoly in the PC era.
What appeared there was "Linux", that a a completely open OS.
Now, we can buy a palm-sized computer (such as a Raspberry Pi) at a price that is cheaper than the cost of my family daily foods, and the performance is exceeded for mainframes in the 1970s.
Roughly half a century has been needed.
(To be continued)
(Continuation from yesterday)
I have been thinking about this for as long as I can remember.
I am both the subject of me and the object of me.
(This is the mimics Ortega's phrase "I am what I am and my environment")
If it's hard to understand, I say "I'm living with my clone" or "I'm living with my twin".
In short, I have two people, one who moves me and the other who observes me.
And I think -- people who 'hate themselves' are too harsh in their observers' estimation.
I would feel too sorry for "me" if "I" hated the "me" that I live with 365 days a year, 24 hours a day.
What if the "I" closest to "me" doesn't protect "me"?
Who else could it be but "me", who can indulge me with saying 'It's okay, I'll get it right this time,", whenever I fail.
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In my case, I don't stop indulging myself.
"It's not my fault at all. It's all the world's fault but me"
I "seriously" believe that.
Why can I think that?
It's because "the world is bad" and "it's not my fault.
At the very least, this is the only "fact" that can be derived from the idea of "I am the center of the world".
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However, I've been told by many people that I'm a "crazy guy" or a "happy guy".
They reported it to me as an objective observation, without "disdain" or "malice" or "respect" or "longing".
And I've heard their opinions as "observers" as well.
I believe their 'observations', So "I'm a 'happy crazy guy", I guess.
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If only the "happy crazy guy" could escape the curse of "I hate myself",
I want to be the "happy crazy guy".
I don't want "kind words" like, "You're worth it on your own".
I've avoided using the camera for remote meetings, but now I'm being asked to use it for conferences, award ceremonies, and other events.
Well, being able to see the speaker's facial expression is useful for remote meetings, but there is the problem of "being able to see into the room".
However, whether you are using Zoom, Teams, or Skype, you have the ability to specify the background screen, so you can choose the screen you want.
I believe that one's personal preferences can be read by the way one chooses to use this screen.
For example, if you attend a budget meeting with Waikiki Beach in the background, people will think, "Doesn't this person need a budget for next year?" or something like that.
I'm afraid I'm going to have to think about those unwanted things.
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In my case, I use "background blur" for my cumbersome room.
It's too much trouble to think about the background.
However, the other day, I couldn't set up this background screen properly and had to show my room in front of more than 100 people.
Well, I'm thinking that no one probably felt uncomfortable just because they were shown my room in "the way I live".
Since Russia's invasions of Ukraine, I have been realizing that fiction stories in novels can be used properly in real life.
First of all, the fact is that "nuclear deterrence" is working to a point.
At this time, neither Russia nor NATO uses nuclear weapons.
Frankly speaking, I have feared and continue to fear that even if "strategic nuclear weapons" are not used, "tactical nuclear weapons" are possible.
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Secondly, a new nuclear weapon using nuclear power plants --- "nuclear power plant attack"
As you know, the world is still shaken by the ongoing Russian attack on nuclear power plants(*).
(*) Russia claims "attack by Ukraine
I believe that the Japanese are the only people in the world who truly understand that "nuclear power plants," which produce electricity, "would be in serious trouble if they did not constantly supply power".
Of course, this refers to the "total loss of power" of the Fukushima nuclear accident.
This "attack on nuclear power plants" is ludicrously easy and ultra-low cost compared to "developing atomic bombs".
There is no need to attack the reactor itself, only to destroy the power grid -- "a few saboteurs" should be enough.
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Thus, strategic nuclear weapons -> tactical nuclear weapons -> nuclear power plant attack,
I realize that we have not "abolished" nuclear weapons, but rather "discovered" a third nuclear weapon.
"I get fed up with seeing people who are energetic and motivated."
This is how I feel when I am depressed.
It is true.
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Looking back on my life, I think, 'I was pretty annoying.
Well, I think it is evident just by reading this blog.
I don't mean to be self-critical of it or intend to criticize others.
On the contrary, I have not wavered one millimeter in our conviction that energetic and motivated people are a vital social resource.
But I have a fantasy that if I could go and see my past (healthy) self and have a conversation with me, it would be pretty interesting.
Positive Ebata vs. Negative Ebata -- who will win?
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Once I have successfully passed through this depressive state, I think I will forget all about these feelings and go back to being an "annoying guy" again.
So, I will leave a note here and now about how I am feeling right now.