"I get fed up with seeing people who are energetic and motivated."

This is how I feel when I am depressed.

It is true.

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Looking back on my life, I think, 'I was pretty annoying.

Well, I think it is evident just by reading this blog.

I don't mean to be self-critical of it or intend to criticize others.

On the contrary, I have not wavered one millimeter in our conviction that energetic and motivated people are a vital social resource.

But I have a fantasy that if I could go and see my past (healthy) self and have a conversation with me, it would be pretty interesting.

Positive Ebata vs. Negative Ebata -- who will win?

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Once I have successfully passed through this depressive state, I think I will forget all about these feelings and go back to being an "annoying guy" again.

So, I will leave a note here and now about how I am feeling right now.