Though I keep feeling that I am really tired, I have to go to my office even holiday.

When I get at a station of Odakyu-dentetsu, I know the big railway traffic accident. Therefore I am in a coffee-shop now.

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What I want to say in my diary today, are

"I have an intention for the holiday attendance."

"I don't want to commute in a sloppy way because of holiday."

like as excuses,

with using my web site to the world,

in order to announce my coworkers within ten meters from my desk.

I went to a movie of "a bee of the heavens".

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When I was a research engineer before becoming the chief, I read this original book.

I remember the day before I sent seven PCs into the big company of Aichi pref, in order to hold the large-scale demonstration.

At the night, I went to the downtown ,leaving the budget hotel, and I bought the book.

Thanks to the book, I had to struggle against sandman during the demonstration.

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To tell you the truth, I am a amateur about atomic bombs and nuclear power plants, however, the reason I could write about them is for following two books.

- "Fire of god"

- "A bee of the heavens"

Well, let it go.

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I am convinced that we can control any nuclear power plants under safe condition with our intentions eventually.

But we also are mentally prepared for repeating the disaster of 3.11.

How many times should we face the tragedy ?

I think that might be the same times of airplane and train hazard in human history.

(To be continued)

Recently, I am working for a top of several head offices.

It is a "Secretary General"

I think that it is basically same as the work of the Secretary-General of United Nations(UN), and I try to apply my work for this case.

- Organizational management of projects and events

- Disputing mediation between project members

- Project handles remarks on various issues

It is similar.

It is closer to the image of mother who manages her family isn't it?

At least I don't have the image of the "father".

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It is too late to notice it, however,

The Secretary-General of United Nations(UN) don' have any power, do them?

(Continuation from yesterday)

reviously, when the remote controller(RC) of Buffalo DVR - W1V2 / 1.0T HDD recorder broke, I ordered a substitute RC. This time the RC also broke again but - "The RC "Remote release finished"

I looked pale.

So, in haste, I decided to make a learning RC with "Raspverry PI".

I went to "akizukidenshi company" in Akihabara for a long time. Recently, Akihabara has become "uncomfortable" more and more.

I wonder if someone try to make a shirt, printed "I have just come to buy electric-parts in Akihabara"

Hi, Maid-san . Please do not close my walking direction.

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- I wanted one infrared remote control reception module "GP1UXC41QS" - but it was a set of 5 pieces (250 yen) (残り4個)

- I wanted one infrared LED "OSI5LA5113A" - but it was a set of 10 pieces (100 yen) (残り9個)

- I want one transistor "2SC1815Y" - but it was a set of 10 pieces (80 yen) (残り9個)

- I wanted one 1/4 W 100 Ω, one 10 K Ω - but it was 100 set (100 yen)

If someone wants one set parts one by one, I will give it, so please send me a 100 yen coin as stamp fee.

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This is the circuit diagram.

This is the circuit picture.

(To be continued)

Previously, in order to maintain home LAN, I kept displaying a video of Youtube in the living room.

The content was an old docutainment of hijack incident of the Japan Red Army.

I like docutainments like this, about terrorist incidents.

Whenever I watch such a program, I can understand deeply that

"How have I contributed to world peace, because I am a third-rate, mediocre, self-employed ?"

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"I want to make the people of the world happy" - There is no annoying and dangerous thought of all ages and countries.

For Aum Shinrikyo, the Red Army of Japan, and other fundamentals, the root thought of terrorism is "here".

To be precise, if a thought of

"In order to make the people happy, the sacrifice of a few people is inevitable"

is added, any terrorism will be completed.

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By chance, in the living room, my second daughter(SD) who was watching the program, asked me,

SD: "For what purpose do these people do this?"

Ebata: "That is for the reason of the so-called "revolution""

SD: "What is "revolution" ?"

After I explained the concept of "revolution" to my daughter, she asked me again.

SD: "I don't know the reason why hijacking an airplane become "revolution"?"

(To be continued)

There are many "different world" in recent anime, but "spirit world" have been for a long time.

In other words, animes have also been accompanied by "spirit world".

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In both "different world" and "spirit world", something strange will be happened in unexpected day. There are features and the gap is interesting.

However, if someone in "different world" or "sprit world" realize 100% of extraordinary life, it will not be a story.

The anime is completed 5 minutes after the hero's wish comes true.

In order not to be so, the concept of "upper limit" and "time limit" must be added to the extraordinary world, even if they are in "different world" or "sprit world"

And not only "effort" but also "talent" must be installed.

So I wonder if

"they need the situation of "different world" or "sprit world?"

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I am now working while listening to the anime "The Case of Lord Hermeloy the II" in the background, but I honestly confess.

"I don't know the content at all"

There are a lot of backgrounds, situations, issues, means to solve the issues, various restrictions, etc. Moreover, they are difficult to understand.

I think that the TOEIC listening session is easier than this animation.

Of course, there is an unfounded belief that this anime, "I don't know what it is, but it must be very interesting if you know it."

But (at least for me) without proper preparation and review, I am afraid that I cannot enjoy this animation. What I do is to watch it.

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I noticed here that I once introduced two animes in a column.

However, I remembered that some of the readers said, "None of this animation could continue to be seen," and thought that it was like that.

For me, there was no "word" that I could not understand in that anime, but there may be many people who did not.

"Schrodinga's cat" used to explain quantum theory, "stand-alone" or "scalability" to explain the relationship between computers and networks, and "analog hack" are undestandable for me.

I know about "astrology", however, I cannot understand the meaning of words "Holy Grail War", "Magic Stamp", or "Magical Society (Society?)".

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Here is my own policy.

"I can't understand it, but if the person who understands says "it is good", it must be "good"

Let's all be happy with this way of thinking.

(Continuation from yesterday)

It goes without saying that security measures are important to avoid being attacked.

Regularly updating security patches, checking whistles, not opening suspicious emails, updating passwords on a regular basis, etc.

The most powerful countermeasures against corona ravages are basic things such as masks, washing hands, and avoiding the three densities.

Furthermore, in addition, "do not buy grudges from people", "make moderate statements", "dare to pretend to be defeated", etc.

That kind of everyday analog response is also quite important in preventing cyber attacks.

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My motto is

"No matter how much of a good argument you have, you'll lose if they burn your house down"

However, this motto is from

"I'd feel better about killing him, even if it meant getting myself arrested"

You should all keep in mind that the above phrase comes from my negative feelings (my track records).

With hearing the following,

Network specialist.

Database specialists.

Embedded systems engineer.

Cloud engineer.

AI engineer.

IoT engineer.

AWS engineer.

Virtualization engineers.

"Shut up!"

I think.

"If it has to be done, it has to be done". It is an engineer.

No matter what the technology, start from anywhere, buy tons of materials (at my own expense), read the Web, bow down to everyone (even the jerks), and then start from scratch again and again -- that's what being an engineer is all about.

It is a world in which there is no 'end', in which I keep moving forward as far as possible in a multi-dimensional space consisting of time, society, and technology.

I have done so until now, and I believe I will continue to do so in the future.

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Incidentally, my company is now starting the system called the "Digital Human Resources Certification System".

I'm going to observe my co-workers carefully.

Recently, my weight is increasing.

I have been confident in "the precision weight control", so I am a bit puzzled.

If I had to guess, I would say "muscle training".

Right now, I'm doing 20 pull-ups, 20 sit-ups, and 50 back-ups, lazily and unseriously, two sets a day, as long as I don't feel overburdened.

My body is not macho-style at all, but I believe that muscle has been manufactured under the fat.

I heard that muscle is 20% heavier than fat.

If this "hidden muscle" is not the reason, then my weight management system is out of order, which is a venerable problem.

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I believe it, because the meal will be bad if I don't think so.

I have always told my family, "It's too late when the pain is 100%. 'Scream' when it's 70%."

And this time, my wife, who couldn't bear to see my mental illness, kept saying repeatedly, 'You should report this to your boss as soon as possible.

Well, I thought it was too "irresponsible" and "cowardly" for me to "talk a lot to people but not shout myself," so I reported this to my supervisor during the interview.

Now, I am a bit, relieved.

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Well, I found out when it was my turn,

"Difficult to talk to others about one's mental health problems"

First, it is "embarrassing.

Reporting my mental illness to a younger boss takes a lot of courage.

My boss, who is younger than me, is better than me.

There was also concern about whether such a talented person could understand "mental illness."

Second, it is "out of character for me (Ebata).

Even I, who usually criticize the government, bureaucrats, and companies in my blog and columns in a pompous manner, feel a 'gap' when I talk about this "mental illness."

This feeling in a word is,

"Who the hell do you think you are?"

And the biggest reason is that mental illness is difficult to verbalize.

"I feel continual depression," "I feel anxious," "I can't sleep at night and wake up soon after sleeping," "I feel tired and have a slight fever throughout the day," "I have no appetite," "I don't feel motivated."

And above all, it is tough to explain 'the most challenging part is not knowing how long this condition will last.

The above are 'objective facts' but sound 'subjective' when uttered.

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I am an engineer myself, so I have done a lot of research on mental illness.

On top of that, I was astonished to find that even after trying everything suitable for mental illness, such as rest, food, and mood swings, however, this situation still did not improve much.

My best engineering approach doesn't work ---- Horrible mental illness

I became acutely aware of the "inaccessibility" of this mental illness.

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This time, I decided to explain to my supervisor that I was "going to the hospital" and that I was "prescribed stabilizers and sleeping pills," adding the obvious "objective facts."

In my case, I think I have successfully made my boss understand.

After all, my boss and I are both engineers, and I realize that the language between engineers is, after all, "objective fact.

After that, I was considered for the content and quantity of my work, and now I feel that I am gradually recovering from my mental illness, which is a bit of a relief.

Nevertheless, I try to stay on top of my health, my physical condition, and my mental health.

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It is said that reporting, contacting, and consulting (horenso) are essential for mental illness.

However, in many cases, this "horenso" is written under the guise of caring for the individual's health care but ultimately based on the theory of the company or organization -- such is the feeling I get.

Regardless, reporting a mental illness of mine was itself frighteningly difficult.

Even I (Ebata), who usually makes such a big deal out of it... No, it is this me... was intimidated by the "embarrassing," "out-of-character," and "difficult to verbalize" comments.

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I understand the feeling of 'I want to get over my mental illness alone without saying anything to anyone.

And it is easy to guess that many people do so and take no action.

Why can I (Ebata) say that? -- Because nearly half of all suicide deaths are caused by mental illness, the number is astonishingly high.

And -- I know all too well that mental illness can lead to suicide with surprising ease.