My junior daughter seems to be sensitive about arithmetic.

I can never resolve an arithmetical problem that she cannot resolve.

I am afraid that I am just a string telephone. I read the suggested answer the prep school provides, and I tell her my interruption only.

In this summer, she borrowed some books from a public library. The books titles are "arithmetic note of Hamamura-Nagisa".

Based on the above background, I taught her "game theory". She could understand it easily, and write a report in just about no time.

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When I told my colleague above the story, I got the following replies.

Colleague:"How old is she?"

Ebata:"The ninth grade."

Colleague: "It is absolutely odd that a girl of junior school could understand something "theory".

Ebata:"So? But the "game theory" is easy to understand just using simple add and subtract"

Colleague: "That is a different story"

Ebata:"What do you mean?"

Colleague:"It is the father. Ordinal fathers didn’t come to think to teach a junior school student the study"

Ebata:"Is that a common sense?”

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Thought I thought that this was a kind of well-meant attempt, I come to be worry that,

"I did something wrong for her didn't I?"

Previously, I heard the story from a junior co-worker that "being abused motivated him".

I felt that this was the first contact to an alien.

I was surprised that "He is a real human being in the world".

In my case, I cannot accept any abuse.

There are two patterns that I can react against an abuse.

"getting down" or "resenting".

I could learn a lot from my faults, but I could not learn anything from scolding me.

So nobody should scolds me.

If you scolds me, my operating capability is going down dynamically.

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Some people might be fed up with saying "this is a opinions of almost 50 years old man isn't it?".

Unfortunately my mind has stopped since I was a teenager.

Even when I got a job, got married, had children, there have been no progress for me.

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In opposition, I can work well even if I am praised.

Sometimes I can get an amazing new record of my operation capability.

So I want you to praise me, and I can generalise it easily.

So to speak, I believe that

"Everybody in the world must want to praise them."

(To be continued)

(Continuation from yesterday)

I think there are many contents that the past myself comes to visit the present myself.

On the contrary, there seems to be few case that the present myself comes to visit the past myself. Even if the case is, it is almost "letter from the past".

Yes I can understand the situation.

If the future myself, whose hair is thin, wrinkly, fat and somehow exhausted middles age, comes to appear in front of myself, and

if the future myself elects suicide because of desperation of my future,

This becomes a really serious time-paradox with suppressed mirth.

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To begin with, the reason why the old myself wants to meet the younger myself, must be

"scolding"

I never come to think anything except for the reason.

I am afraid that the story is going to annoy us beyond comparison.

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For example,

On the scene of the 23th and the last of "Steins;Gate", if the hero in future is thin, fat and annoying,

the great animation would have been ruined at that time.

About the yesterday's diary, I was talking with the second daughter(SD).

SD:"Do you take care about adults"?

Ebata: "That is not true, but psychological thresholds will go down"

SD: "What is a difference between children and adults?"

Ebata: "There are quite a lot of means to escape from suicide (systems and institutions), but children do not know it well, teachers do not tell them (*1). Even if children know it, they have no experience using that means"

"Child does not come to school" means that the teacher is useless. In addition, they were accused of lack of management skills.

SD: "Adults are same aren't they?"

Ebata:"For adults", it is lack of study. Because they are living longer than children, there should have been time to study it on their own."

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In addition, parents tend to push a message their child "Anyway you go to school" with saying "If you really do not like it, you can take a day off."

I think that this phrase of "if you don't like it", will give a "death" to the child finally.

When your boss told you, "If you do not want to do this job, you do not have to do this work", can you say "I did not want to do this job, so I did not do this work"? How many people can say this phrase in Japan?

Or, do not you know really, the guardian ?

Though you are an adult.

Even I, who has been continued being said as "insolent and arrogance", can not say such things (rarely).

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Therefore, the phrase that parents should say to children who are uneasy about behavior, are following.

"Take a day off today! This is an order! If you go to school today, I will never make you go to school again!"

You yells like this, and gives your child an excuse to help them.

Let's become such a guardian.

each other.

(Continuation from yesterday)

If you are a regular reader of my diary, you may be surprised to read the diary of yesterday, especially about "atomic nuclear power plant".

I know that "atomic nuclear power plants" are formidable danger.

I know that not only human being but also computers has no way to stop the meltdown, if once causing a meltdown of the reactor.

For the common good, "atomic nuclear power plants", as well as "atomic bomb" will be disposed on the globe, however,

If someone asks me "Are you interested in the R&D of management technology that does not make nuclear reactors runaway absolutely ?", I will answer, "Yes. I am"

I know that "an absolutely safe system" does not exist in an absolute sense

However, I as an engineer, can put "to proof my theory" before "public interest".

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Though I do not know about other engineers and scientists, the reason why I, as an engineer, can do such a "thought like a devil" (or have a double-standard policy)

I know well that the process of "to proof my theory" is going to fail 99.9%.

My challenge will not succeed in most cases.

Do you know how many times I have failed to create my own simulation, or how many times I have failed the hypothesis verification ?

In other words, The reason I can overlook such my "thought like a devil" is

"I have extraordinary achievements and trust in my "incompetence" as my engineer

(To be continued)

To you, thinking about suicide(Part 2)

Checklist for the coming September 6th (Friday).

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- Complete disposal of so-called "Ero Books” or "BL Books”, self-made poems, moe pictures, and lyrics

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If they are paper-based something, burn them completely.

However, recently, bonfires etc. are in violation of the law even if they are in the home, so it is troublesome to be notified.

It is necessary to burn little by little in an unpopular place.

I think that it is better to prepare kerosene, considering that it must be completely ashed.

The problem is digital data.

Basically all passwords of contents stored on the PC are broken easily.

Even after deletion, most contents can be recovered (there is special software that makes recovery impossible).

Whether it is suicide or not, the police handle the seizure of evidence.

The media loves this kind of content.

Especially today's teenage suicide is their favorite food.

Of course, this is a privacy violation, but privacy violations do not apply to dead humans.

Therefore, it is necessary to destroy PCs and smartphones completely.

However, information can be obtained from a part of the memory, and the data will not disappear if it is submerged.

It is safe to throw away where it is difficult to find.

I recommend "discarding in the sea on a harbor cruise”.

There are still 5 days, so hurry up and book a train or cruise now.

By the way, the card will reveal your identity, so please make a reservation in cash.

Be careful not to write your real name in the crew list.

In addition, "discarding in the sea by harbor cruise" is a criminal act. So you should not be witnessed by people around you. Also, ordinary people can arrest you, so please be careful not to secure your personality.

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- Deleting SNS entries

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The police can issue a disclosure order to the provider, so it can be easily examined.

Even anonymous SNS can identify individuals relatively easily from the location information of the smartphone.

Moreover, if there is a history on your computer or smartphone, you can identify it with a single shot.

It is certain to request removal from the provider, but this is particularly troublesome (I have done it on the website of the neighborhood association).

First, you must verify your identity, but if you have not registered an anonymous SNS with your real name, there is no way to show that you are.

Even if the identity can be proved, if the provider refuses to delete it, you must order the court and proceed with the proceedings.

And even if the deletion is successful, the cache will remain, so it will take some time for it to disappear (it may take about a year). Well, basically you have to give up.

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I think there is a way of thinking that "why do I have to think something because I will die anyway soon" (at least I can understand)

However, it may not be said that "pain" is irrelevant.

Therefore, you consider the following considerations.

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- Examination of suicide method

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Do not jump into the train. Even if it is "you don't care for it", you can't die immediately.

It also fails with a high probability.

In addition, wrist cuts are not recommended because the pain time is long.

The method of using briquettes also suggests long-term pain because vomit remains around the body. (Though you don't know, it's the same painful state of hangover)

I recommend hanging on the neck (the death penalty method officially adopted by Japanese law). However this will result in defecation due to muscle relaxation, so if possible, complete fasting is recommended today.

If water is not consumed, survival for 5 days is not guaranteed. Please give up "urinate".

Moreover, it has been reported that a considerable amount of distress occurs in amateur hanged suicides.

If possible, it is desirable to use the long drop method (dropped from a sufficiently high point), which is adopted by the Japanese capital punishment system.

Since it would be difficult to implement the long drop method at home, I think it is relatively certain to use a school gymnasium.

If the rope knots are loose, the worst is tibial damage, and you will have to stay alive with the half-body attached. Please make your preparations carefully.

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I think it would be difficult to clear the above checklist in five days on a scheduled basis, however I say "do your best".

However, delaying this case and schedule will not have a significant effect, so you may study it, and do it slowly.

I talk to my daughters about my youthful romance objectively, like other's love affairs.

After that, my daughters also tell me the ongoing story (although the disclosure may be limited, of course).

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Recently, as a fummy story that my daughter got

"The 1024 red threads of destiny are connected at the same time, centering on you, and none of them are in a confirmed state"

That was the so-called "quantum love theory" based on my recent study of "quantum theory".

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After hearing the story, she was laughing loudly.

Though I don't know what happened to her, I told my daughter, "Well, do your best."

During a recent visit to my parents' house, I weeded the garden for the first time in a year.

A year ago, we installed weed control sheets over the entire garden, but grass was growing in the gaps between the sheets or even through them.

The grass that grew in this environment was like the thickness of a tree. In fact, there was such awesome grass that we had to use a chainsaw to cut it.

I had been wielding a chainsaw since the evening of the day I returned home, when suddenly, from behind me, I heard an eerie sound and fled at once.

"bees, polistes wasp"

I had heard that my sister had already repelled two nests using this spray before I returned home this time, so I was not expecting their appearance.

I looked carefully and found a palm-sized beehive under the eaves.

I thought this was dangerous, so that day I put two mosquito coils under the eaves and left -- and this was a big mistake.

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Early in the morning of the next day, I was convinced that I had been "annihilated" by the 20-second continuous spray of the above-mentioned spray gun, then slept a wink and started work at 10:00 in the morning.

And as I started to work, there were more than 10 bees in the garden, staying in the air and ready to attack me.

This was my fault, as the mosquito coils of the previous day had left the main bees in a waiting state outside the hive.

So, what I did was -- while weeding with my left hand, I held the spray gun with my right hand and intercepted the attacking bees in the air, a battle mode of weeding that I had never experienced before, "bee fighting weeding".

The work efficiency was not good at all.

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It reminded me of the incident where the U.S. troops stationed in Afghanistan accidentally turned a friend's car into a beehive with their machine gun.

And later, while packing the grass into a garbage bag, I found another beehive.

This time, I didn't make the same mistake.

I sprayed the spray gun at once and made sure there was no sign of a counterattack. After that, I threw some lit newspaper under the hive and sprayed it again with the spray gun. With this improvised flamethrower, I reduced the bees and the hive to ashes in an instant (*).

(*) Amateurs, please do not try this. I am an expert in "playing with fire," having repeatedly burned and blown up things with various chemicals since I was in elementary school.

After this attack, there were no more bees in the garden.

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The coronavirus, the terrorists, and the bees -- all to be eradicated in an instant.

The importance of this was reconfirmed during this garden maintenance.

Today, I gave a presentation (?) on safety lectures in the company.

(Omitted hereafter.)

More details will be released soon...I hope.

Singer Masashi Sada sings a song called "Kanpaku Sengen" ("Tyrant declaration "). This song includes the phrase

"A man who can't do his job should not be able to care for his family."

"A man who can't do his job should not be able to care for his family."

I see...I guess so.

I am not mentally well enough these days to think about such things.

It is said that "two weeks in a row" is the judgment point for starting a psychosomatic visit. It may be about to expire.

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By the way, I was a teenager when I heard "Kanpaku Sengen."

I thought it was a gag song, one of Masashi Sada's favorites, but my teenager's wife found it offensive.

-- A song that can hardly be described as a "gag."

A teenage girl at the time thought that