I have got terrible got furiously angry today around the clock.

As the same state, I went to the business trip today,

"A crowd was broken in front of me neatly"

I thought, "It is Moses' Ten Commandments".

I heard that I am only angry in a room of the second floor, anyone in the first floor come to feel sick.

"The aura of the anger of Ebata" is still alive.

I have often told you a story that "accident resulting in injury or death" is "a result of accidental action, that even the person in-question in oneself cannot control ".

In fact, it it true, and I cannot help but thinking it like that.

And, as usual, I think that this is a sort of protest, which the hopeless victims try it against unrelieved society.

Above all, I was a person like the above.

I am afraid that few people can understand that a fear of "my legs was putting my body down the station platform against my will"

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But,

A mid-night of the other day, when I was too exhausted and was likely to vomit, I got involved in an "accident resulting in injury or death" that was going to be impossible to come back home.

I felt a flame blazing instantly, and I came to think of the word in my mind

"suicide bombing"

I was surprised at what I was.

At the moment, I recovered myself soon, and tried to remember recent events.

(To be continued)

Recently, even eating Hokkyoku-ramen, I don't feel no longer painful as of old.

As normally delicious ramen, it will complete to have it from the beginning to the end.

In life in general, I become to seek more and more spicy foods. Recently, I bought a red pepper (crushed ones) for kimuchi of large bag containing, and I carry around to put in a bottle.

And, I sprinkle the pepper over and over again on ramen and soba noodles and curry.

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After eating three times spiciness of the Hokkyoku-ramen, I remembered the nostalgic feeling "Hokkyoku-Ramen is hot and painful".

A few days ago, I tried a ramen, called "Hokkyoku extremely". I didn't know the spicy level by a numeric value, however,

I don't know what is what about this spicy, and finally, I don't know what I am aiming at no longer.

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I remembered a nightmare at that time.

My foolish behaviour patterns, "Ends and means become reversed".

Without measuring self-evaluation, what was on earth, does "desire to no limit spicy" give me ?

It is, "the precious delicious ramen becomes something full of painful"

a truly foolish act.

(Continuation from yesterday)

For example,

---- Example 2 ----

To: Mr_A@kobore.net

Cc: project_X@kobore.net

Dear Mr.A

The directory you will submit your materials whose deadline is today noon,

is "\\prject_X\20170910"

Regards, Ebata

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I send the above message, soon after the noon.(12:01, for example)

This is a characteristic that "to show him/her the existance of Ebata of the D.S. who get angry with smiling, over the peaceful phrase".

This mail broadcasts to all members of the project, too.

Wel, you know.

What I am doing is a "reign of terror by e-mail".

(To be continued)

In order to secure my father, who lived solo,

- in the home security server (on Raspberry PI), with IoT communication device "SORACOM",

- I made the closed private network (by SoftEther), and

- accessed to the server from my home PC by SSH

From Golden Week holidays of this May, I continued the experiments and developments little by little, and

finally, I could confirm the activation at this weekend.

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However, my father is nowhere to be found (belowground at the end of this July)

I released my column whose content was "possibility of pregnancy between people of the same sex" using iPS cells technology.

In the column, I expressed my opinion that "It is going to be possible in the future".

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At present, according to a marriage of the same sex, it is possible to get married under the conditions by operating sex change and changing sex in census register.

However, Japanese laws (civil laws) consistent with admitting heterosexual marriages only, even if it is for sex or for gender.

I have not joined a political campaign for same-sex marriage, however if someone ask me state my position for or against, I say "for".

Because I cannot find "rational reasons against same-sex marriage".

The reason is extremely simple. If there are both a marriage system and a couple to use the system, it is natural to make the system open for everyone.

Some people try to argue "reproductive capacity" against same-sex marriage, I think that the time of argument is stupidly wasteful.

If we decide that "reproductive capacity" is a condition for the marriage, we have to enforce to repudiate the marriage because of "no child" in order for consistency of law.

In any marriage styles, using the words of "reproductive capacity" for a significance of marriage, is nonsense and vulgarity.

Above all, I think that "our life is not for nation and law". I believe that "nation and law exist for our happy life", and if not, "nation is law are meaningless".

"Any couple who wants to become happy each other, fills the bill of marrige".

I don't need any reason except for it.

Moreover,

(1)No demerit for me, (2)merits for others, (3)no way to explain about the demerit reasonably.

As long as these three conditions, I cannot say anything against marriage of the same sex.

This is a simple elementary-level math.

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I can understand "we don't like any change". I can agree with the opinion.

However, if the change is "without my own disadvantage" and "without my special effort", I basically do not "disturb the change".

After all, it means that "leave others alone".

(To be continued)

"I hate myself"

There are a lot of songs with lyrics like that, and a lot of people say that themselves.

On the other hand,

"I hate my kids"

I've never seen a song with those lyrics, and I don't know of anyone who professes to do so (regardless of how they feel about it)

Why? I don't have to ask myself. Because the subject and the object are different.

Even though they are your children, they are not your children.

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In comparison, the world is full of "I hate xx".

Additionally, "I hate my parents", even if they are related by blood, can be found everywhere (though not in the lyrics).

In other words, there is an asymmetrical relationship between parents and children about "dislike".

The children are in a stronger position.

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Children can give reasonable explanations about "dislike",

"Children are not born to choose their parents"

or

"Children are forced to be vulnerable as dependents in the first place"

or

"Children are destined to inherit their parents' genes"

On the other hand, it's difficult (or "impossible") for parents to provide such a reasonable explanation.

"Thank me for being born and for being here"

An adult who can say those things to a child must have a pretty good heart.

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Now, back to the "I hate myself" story.

(To be continued)

I don't like "overseas business trips" that use up huge amounts of energy and exhaustion.

From a cost-benefit perspective, it is not a very efficient form of business.

I have a sneaking suspicion that those who say they like to travel abroad are not doing their job properly. I have a bad feeling about them.

Aside from that.

The international conference I attended this time was of course a "virtual conference".

Of course, I am submitting a conference paper in anticipation of that (corona disaster).

In addition to the ease of not having to give a presentation in front of front-line researchers in the field, I also had the opportunity,

"Question and answer session can be conducted in a real-time chat forum"

This is very significant.

After all, all I have to do is keep the translation engine standing by next to the Zoom screen.

The accuracy of modern translation engines is so high that I can respond in real time.

Thanks to this, I was able to ask questions about all the presentations, as far as my own session was concerned.

This was an unprecedented achievement for me -- even if no one appreciated it.

In the first half of this year, I made two international conference submissions in a row.

This is a

"A sneaky strategy for engineers who don't love the English language, making the most of the Corona disaster"

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In Japan, a nation unloved by the English language, the Corona disaster is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity for engineers to earn their quota.

However, when I checked, I found that only two Japanese were participating in this conference.

As someone who knows the days when each maker company sent more than 10 young researchers to the IETF conference during the bubble period, I honestly can't believe it.

Well, I guess it depends on the theme, so maybe there were not many Japanese people at this conference by chance.

But even taking all that into account, Japan, as a country with a large number of engineers who don't love the English language, I think

"If we don't strike now, when will we strike?"

If the world goes back to the way it was, it will be too late.

Needless to say, the corona disaster is a calamity that should be extinguished as soon as possible.

At the same time, however, the Corona disaster is the greatest advantage for "engineers who are not loved by English".

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We must not miss this period.

I would like the Ministry of Education, Culture, Sports, Science and Technology (MEXT) to propose a national strategy to "reinstate Japan as a technological powerhouse and revive its international competitiveness during the Corona disaster period.

Of course, it will be loudly criticized not only in Japan, but also all over the world, but I guarantee you that it will stick in the hearts of "engineers who are not loved by English".

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But -- it may be too late.

When I looked at where the attendees came from, I got the feeling that even North America, not to mention Japan, is in a "slump".

Southeast Asian and Europe countries were the strongest -- and the nearby continent was still overwhelming.

The "original manuscript subscription applicants" are coming even now.

By now, I'm starting to worry, 'What if it's a disappointment for them?'

I had judged on my own that the content would be OK. and I did not think it would be that great.

(However, it seems that the editorial department demanded "deletion" and the wife demanded "suspension of publication.)

"Enough for anyone to read a few books on this cult (including its doctrines)"

(After zero applicant after two consecutive days, I will publish it. ) is not satisfied now.

I will work on editing this weekend, but may have to wait a little longer for release.

Please understand that I apologize.

At the time of the Kyoto Animation Incident, I believe that all of Japan was calling for the maximum penalty (death penalty) for the perpetrators with a burning hatred.

Well, even now, I don't think this hatred has subsided.

However, it is also mentioned here,

No matter how brutal the murder, and no matter how consistent the prosecution, defense, and both sides are in finding the case--

A suspect in a murder case should be judged on the amount of sentence after the defense has exhausted all possible defenses.

Especially when it comes to the extreme penalty of the death sentence, we have to be given the maximum opportunity to defend ourselves, to say, like 'I can't defend myself anymore.'

This is the principle of the rule of law system.

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I have another way of looking at it other than this principle of a legal system.

It is the scientific elucidation of the criminal mind.

I think it would be worthwhile to understand why these crimes were committed -- to understand the process technically, scientifically, and engineeringly.

This is because I believe that if we can "visualize" the psychology of criminals through this approach, it will help to create a "social model that does not generate the same criminals.

Therefore, even after the death penalty has been passed, interviews (information gathering) should continue to be conducted with death row inmates, and thorough clarifications should be made.

In that sense, the "Aum Shinrikyo case, execution of seven people on the same day" was unfortunate.

I remember feeling as if valuable materials were being burned.

I have been writing about the "United Red Army" and "Aum," but I can't seem to think of them as "other people's business,"

"What was it that separated them from me?"

Even now, I keep thinking about it.

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If you ask, "Is Ebata an opponent of the death penalty?" I would say the opposite.

I do not have such a sense of humanism or human rights.

(Although, as a citizen who does not oppose the death penalty, I do believe that 'I must see executions with my own eyes.')

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Once we get all the data we can from the death row inmates, and we decide, 'There's nothing more to come out of it,'

I hope that the death row inmate is considered to have "completed what needs to be done" and that he is then promptly and solemnly executed with the fixed sentence provided for by current law.