It is nice to know that the programs I have created, whether in my company or on the Internet, are being used to help other people (to make a living).

But I don't boast, saying, 'This is something I (Ebata) made.

I cannot do such a dumb thing in this technical field.

I don't know about the rest of the world, but the OSS (Open Source Software) has helped me in the software world.

Some OSS development requires at least one person, while others need 20 or more.

OSS developers do not say, 'This is what I made. At least, I have never heard that.

I cannot thank all the developers of the OSS, so I am using it with gratitude in my heart.

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The greatest reward for those who make things is that "the thing works.

The above may be similar to "defeating the last boss" in games (I don't play games, so I'm not sure).

Both 'working things' and 'defeats the raspberry' are ultimate subjectivity.

There is no third-party perspective there.

The evaluation I get from someone else is objective, but (I don't know about anyone else, but I) don't care about objectivity.

The "working things" and "defeating the raspberry" can be summed up in one word: "a means of amusing oneself.

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I once asked my wife the difference between a "cabaret-going husband" and a "husband who puts his time into programming that may or may not make money."

I have devoted myself to work and research (including programming) on all days, including weekends and holidays, for the past year and a half since I have been at the university. I don't remember going out. I have canceled all drinking parties.

Ebata: "Despite the differences in motivation, I don't think there is any difference in terms of 'immersing oneself in one's world and entertaining oneself' as a result."

Wife: "I'm not sure, but I think it's a question of 'am I angry or not? I don't get mad at my husband, who works tirelessly daily to juggle work and school."

Ebata: "Does that mean there can be 'an angry wife'?"

Wife: "I think so. But it's hard to discuss 'cabaret' and 'business and academics' on the same level. It's just too bad an example to compare them."

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With my wife having this conversation,

"I guess it must have been difficult for women who wanted to study in the old paradigm of "women don't need to study."

strangely, however, I was convinced.