I think I have been very busy since the second half of this year.

Still, I managed to get by, so I thought, 'I guess I can get by'.

However, things have not been going as planned due to a series of dental pain, back pain, and general fatigue caused by a cold that has been occurring in rapid succession for the past two weeks.

I have often experienced the "I can't perform" → "I can't get the work done" → "I'm in a hurry" phase. However Now the situation is as follows.

'I get nauseous when I try to think about anything'

When this happens, there is nothing more that can be done.

In situations like this, when I look down on my normal,

"What in the world was I working so hard every day for?"

This is the feeling I have now

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Maybe when I recover from this condition, I will start talking about myself and others as if I have forgotten all this.

However, I leave this diary to remember that I am now 'weak and unable to do anything about this situation', which is my default.

To remind myself once again that I will never make me a person who only says, "Hang in there," to people who have been affected by the disaster, who have been afflicted, who are broken, exhausted, and unable to stand up.