I just finished the whole funeral event and came home to realize it.

Now, my parents are displayed as a couple of posthumous portraits in my parents' home.

During the Corona disaster, I asked for a minimum number of people to be held, but I had to accept the request to 'see the faces of my mother at the end'.

Well, thanks to that, I was able to learn a lot about my mother's birth story, as well as my childhood personality -- or rather, my "strategy.

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My mother was very strict with me and did not buy me what I wanted (toys, etc.).

And I heard that I was giving a presentation to my mother, 'rolling around on the floor and crying to get my demands through.

It was a final strategy against my mother.

On the other hand, I heard I was a quiet child who would not implement such a strategy on anyone.

I don't remember any of this story, but I must admit that it is an objective fact, since three people testified about it, while waiting at the crematorium.

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But -- one way to solve the problem is that a method of

"Arbitrarily exacerbate or inflame the problem to make it go away"

In other words, the solution I am using now has been cultivated by having a "virtual enemy", my mother.

I'm sure there are more than a few people who have been affected by this solution of mine.

"It's not my fault, but my mother's fault"

Today, I was convinced of it.