Just looking at the title of the article -- "People who study hard but are dumb" -- makes me angry.

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I wondered what it meant to be "dumb" in the first place -- and reviewed my diary. I also had used the word "dumb" many times.

In my case, I seem to be uniformly calling people 'dumb', who 'believe that anti-social activities with thinking ascool', 'repeat idealistic and irrational claims', or 'force patriotism on others'

My use of "dumb" seems to be explained in a manner of speaking as "a person who is unable to communicate properly," irrespective of whether or not they have studied.

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In contrast, "dumb" in the phrase "people who study hard but are dumb" seems to be used to mean "unable to produce results.

If that's what they mean, then "people who study hard but are dumb" is exactly what I am.

So I guess that the phrase has made me angry.

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I'm really, really, really one of "people who study hard but are dumb".

Especially in English, law, and work, I've probably been studying for an astonishing amount of time, but I haven't really seen any "results" (grades, money, status).

After a long period of time, I finally admitted (or gave up) that I was dumb even though I was studying hard.

In other words, I gave up "studying as a means to an end".

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So, if you're asking me what I did... -- If I may be so bold as to say, I changed my policy of

"Enjoy the study itself"

To put it simply, it's a switch to studying without the concept of "results".

Unlike examinations or qualifications, it is a study where the direction (bias) of the study and the time spent on the study are determined solely by my "discretion".

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In the same way that "those who are not loved by English will never be loved no matter what they do.

If you're not smart enough to study, you're not going to be smart enough until you die.

Why don't you stop wasting your efforts? -- I have stopped it.

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I'm sure that those who study hard and are smart can see a wonderful world that I cannot.

In comparison, "I, who study hard but am dumb," cannot see things from a bird's eye view, and hence I keep writing columns where I keep running into problems in society and keep complaining about them.

Or, on the weekend, I painstakingly put a crappy IT system on a $5,000 on-board computer, or on a $500/month cloud server, and I can feel happy with that little piece of success.

Though these not-so-beautiful days of "I study hard but I'm dumb" will continue until the day I die,

I'm fine with that.