If I look at marriage ads, I see a lot of talk about "conscious men" and "women who want to be high-income men".

Well, I'm sure there are some people who do, but I think it's a small number.

From what I've seen in my life, the overwhelming majority of people are of the "manageable" variety.

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Contrary to this, I have lived with the pessimism that, even if If everyone else does well, I'll not "manage",

When I was 15 years old.

I didn't find the conversation painful.

I think my speaking skills were pretty good there, and I didn't feel like the girls didn't like me either.

I was also in the (then) glamorous position of student council.

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But I had an intuitive "personality and interface of unsuitability for marriage" inside me that I felt throughout my body.

It's hard to be specific. However, there was a "distrust of myself that drifted from the whole thing for examples, "off topic", "different kind of empathetic poit", and "ideals divorced from reality".

Apparently, that was not only my subjective view, but also my objective view.

Here's the case that they even organized a camp to discourage me from getting married.

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I think I was thinking from then on, 'I have to do something about it.

With that in mind, it may be said that my marriage activity started at the age of 15.