I am reading the diary yesterday,
"Is Ebata's abstinence metanoia ?"
I will be in trouble if such a rumor flows.
From college to now, I have been proud of "high rate questioning from polic persons" ( compared to other's opinions)
A news of "Ebata's metanoia" might motive security police ( I am not somebody.)
Anyway I state positively "Ebata's abstinence is not for metanoia".
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To begin with, I don't feel that I should have any religion I can believe, before metanoia.
"Do not desire yourself, do not give it to others - except when necessary"
For now, I think that can do something.
When religion is needed, I am thinking to sign a provider with a major religion (for example, three major religions) at that time.
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I believe in the existence of God. However, although it is "God who is not interested in human beings as much as 1 milimeter".
It is a useless God, not worthy of faith.