(Continuation from yesterday)

Let me explain about the current "me".

According to my body and health, as expected generally, "tragedy" is an exaggerated expression. So "annoying" (for example, low vision, or pains) is acceptable for me.

On the other hand, I think that "philosophy of living" has been improved since now.

I live my life for long time, and many use-cases have been accumulated, and the possibility to avoid problems is higher than of my youth.

And, I come to know many trouble-shooting of each use-case.

It it true that I come to take my life easy, because I can dull the pain of the trouble for short time.

In addition, I cannot think that "I want to repeat my younger days" at all.

This means (for me, at least) that it is evidence that "aging" is something valuable.

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If it is true, I, who cannot dispose of excremental matter of mine, will find something valuable beyond my imagination.

I don't give up hope from "my figure from outside", but I want to expect "my figure from inside".

There was joy and suffering in my 10's, and

there was also joy and suffering in my 50's, and

I wish that

"I, who can not handle excrement by myself", will have the joy and suffering in the era.

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However, honestly speaking, I am afraid that I can not imagine even the hypothesis of the possibility, at this moment.