(Continuation from yesterday)

And,

Whenever my birthday comes, what I think that

- we endure, persevere, strive, and we get something (such as identity, money, knowledge, etc.)

- I double whether our life is really valuable, against being doomed to die, while destroying abomination

―― と。

I think that "they are not valuable"

If "they are not valuable" is true, I think

- we should not make efforts beyond our performances,

and,

- we should not have excessive patience or perseverance that will destroy our mind.

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However, if there is only one hope,

I think that there will be a big difference between "what we observe us from the outside" and "what we observe us from the inside".

When I was a teenager, I could not imagine "what I am who lived for half a century now."

And then, at that time, I believed that "I, who lived for half a century" has declined severely and has miserable time without no reasons.

(To be continued)