At this age, a birthday is less fun than ordinary days.

I do not care much what I am heading towards the end of my life.

A birthday is a day for me to realize that "a day when I can not control myself" is surely approaching.

To tell you the truth,

The appearance of parents who become old and can no longer control themselves are figures of mine in the future.

So, maybe no one can escape from the fact.

From everyday, I who am saying or writing elusive things to the world,

will live while receiving "treatment of my excrement" by someone somewhere.

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"Only I am special. Only I can complete the last of life that is not miserable". There is no reason why such favorable things happen for you.

Even those who are said to be "healthy old people" will be ultimately "an old man who can not handle excrement on our own".

The longer the period is, the longer our abomination continues to be exposed, and the heavier the state is a burden of many people (especially of the people).

(To be continued)