(Continuation from yesterday)

Some people think that

"Why does Ebata hate "sermon" with violence"

The reason is that I have face unpleasant scenes more than others in my life.

(And it is an important point) I am a real person who know well that the sermons have never been useful for my life, at all.

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I can tell you that "any sermon has been meaningless"

The teacher of my life is "failure" that I have decided by myself, have carried it out by myself, and after that I have gotten by myself.

Only "a pain" of "the failure" has given me my life, and I don't know another way to live my life from now.

Though they are clunky and awkward, this is my life.