The previous day, I read an old girl's comic from web site.

The cool good-looking leader in an underground side governs some high schools and a bad girl tries to oppose the group.

"Is there any merit to govern high schools?"

To begin with, I think it is impossible to make a biz. model.

Drags biz. will be out soon. If they want to avoid it, the profit is going to be smaller.

In addition, high school students will graduate soon, so it is difficult to get money from them for a long time.

And it is non-realistic that he is a cool and good-looking leader in dark side.

Ordinal leaders are always about to run all over to keep the group.

"I will leave this matter to you."

"Thank you very much, my honor."

Such a group doesn't work well. Any subordinates don't obey his order.

Even if it is an evil group, the group is going to be crashed for one month under the elegant leader.

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However, it can't be helped that I blame the girl’s comics and the fact becomes clear for all children.

I am afraid that some children will suffer from this misunderstanding.

Especially, I want to send my messages to a captain in junior high school who doesn't have any charisma.

(Continuation from yesterday)

When I was a teenager, I also thought that "I want a genuine article".

I really believed that there was "real grit" in the world.

But it might just in the field of mathmatics or physics (or I don't find it even if it is in the world because I am a mediocre person)

I think now that I was happy to give up searching it.

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My seniors or fellows who never gave up finding "real grit" were falling into ruin in the dark side.

Towards "revolution" or "religion" or anything which who has not yet watched.

They believed that "anyone, except for me, made something wrose. So if we destroy the something, it become to go well".

After all, they ruined themselves by various antisocial acts (including terrorism and the cult),

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I think that the characters in this book are better than my seniors, fellows and I.

Though they are starving to get "real grit", they are not going to pass the buck to others and society even if they are in trouble.

They don't shift the responsibility to outside, don'trun away from the problem and don't destroy the problem, they try to being up against the problem.

I am impressed by the figure obediently.

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But such a way of life is quite hard.

Escaping in mathematics and physics is much more comfortable.

As far as I know, the defeat rate of fight to confront my heart is 100% for seeking "real grit".

Still are they going to continue the fight ?

I who ran away quickly before finishing my teenager, want to make sure of "it".

I have already repeated the same story until now, that my vomiting reflex is too strong to continue any operation using gastric camera.

Even if you feel my irreverence or arrogance.

"I can accept my death if I have to repeat the pain of gastric camera"

I, who live my mundane life, don't tolerate the torture of that extraordinary pain.

In such a reason, I have continued to ignore the warning of medical checkup for more than 10 years, and have done barium examination only. When polyps of the stomach had been found, I have left it. (Because I was diagnosed with a benign polyp in 10 years ago).

The other day, the examination center passed me the ultimatum with a message "Go to specialized agency as soon as possible", but I didn't care of it at all.

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Now I have changed my opinion.

"I have to do my best to survive for my family"

The present slogan of both my wife and me is "I survive after about 10 years (until the loan is completed at least)"

It was my junior worker that made us bring a paradigm shift. He had to leave the world, leaving his family.

I feel a sharp pain in my body, whenever I come to think of his regret.

(To be continued)

My senior daughter, who has been a college fresh young this year, introduced me a book "How to walk for a college fresh young"

The education system of colleges is perfectly different from those of before colleges, so I think the book like this might be helpful for her.

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Daughter(D):"How was that?"

Ebata(E):"It is good. this book will make you ease"

D:"Well, worrisome phrase, you said. What does it mean?"

E;"Um, These authors had already graduated from colleges and now they are member of society aren't they?

D:"Maybe".

E:"I think any people can speak their own past events after the graduation. It is just a review of their life"

D:"And?"

E:"The newcomers are now running about in confusion in the jungle, without no information of where to go, and what to do.

D:"Absolutely"

E:"I think, these authors are the jungle's observer who live in a space stationary satellite.

D:"I see"

E:"For a college fresh young, the reports from the satellite, in addition reported in several years ago, is really useful ?"

D: "Do you want to say that this book is not useful at all?"

E:"I think it is useful for you. However, if you breathe a sigh of relief, it might be dangerous, I am afraid. This book doesn't cover all risk of your campus life"

D:"What should I do on earth?"

E:"Let me see.... "prepare yourself for the worst", after all"

D:"Pardon ?"

E:"These authors wrote their own failure stories based on their campus life, and I believe that this book is useful for your future accidents"

D:"?"

"However, you could not avoid all your troubles in your future campus life. as might be expected"

D:"..."

E:"Ultimately I think, even if you do preadjustments or come to be watchful, you should show your disreputable appearance to others, finally""

D:"I understand"

E:"Numbers of disreputable appearance seem to be equal to numbers of college fresh young, I think"

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In addition, we all come to be adults, who

feel understanding the world by just jumping over the disreputable appearance

will become annoying adults to preach to the young guys at the drinking party in the future

We all cannot run away from the fact.

I decided to be silent about the above

(Continuation from yesterday)

The most interesting thing is that the hypothesis that this world is premised on "IT" like using mail, SNS, Web - is "false".

I am now the director of the Public Affairs Division of the neighborhood association(NA), and I now recognize that I am a radical, who am pushing ahead with IT.

For the beginning, I'm starting to build a mailing list for Steering Committee members (Board) of the NA, but to tell you the truth,

"Failed" from the beginning.

Some people do not disclose their email address.

I initially thought "they have high privacy and security awareness", but recently I have learned amazing things.

"They do not have a mail address"

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When I heard this, I thought "It would be kidding."

Because, "30 years" has passed since it use e-mail for the first time , with be called "geek" at the university campus.

In "10 years", the first fighter plane was created after the light brothers made the first airplane

In "15 years", telephone service began in between Tokyo and Yokohama from the patent assessment of Graham Bell,

However, it is "30 years".

Above all, now, the number of mobile phones and smartphones are over lightly exceeding twice the labor force population(It is not "two people each have" but the average is two)

How, how long have they been able to keep away from "only" e-mail for 30 years?

"Answer: Because they do not have any problems without e-mails"

(To be continued)

(Continuation from yesterday)

While discussing the story with my colleagues(C),

C:"Well, Ebata-san. If the have same skills of yours, even if they are seniors or not, they are working in the field.

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At the moment, I thought that he threw a curve.

Ebata:"Do you have an intention that a neighborhood association(NA) is a slush pond where persons who don't have skills and ambitions ?"

C:"No, I don't. Rather, I think NA is the place where assures "backwardness".

Ebata:"I'm not sure"

C:"Let me see. How about "spiritual safe-net"? "

Ebata:"..."

C:"Well then, "Escort Flotilla for anti-technologist"

Ebata:"....Ah"

C:"Now, even if the present society considers right about getting skills and effectiveness, the organization can be managed eventually ----- One of them is NA"

Ebata:"I see"

C:"Above all, NAs have no election system, and no governance for the organization management."

Ebata:"I think so. No chain of command and sanction even if we ignore the orders"

C:"Managing an organization including non-intelligent members, the organization should include the "backwardness" engine.

Ebata:" "Backwardness to survive". It is a new idea for me."

C:"By the way, Ebata-san. Why did you eager to decrease the load of your task?"

Ebata:"I am always busy for 24 hours 7 days. Anytime I am doing something, and I always need time more. Why don't I dally over inefficient and unpleased works ? It is natural that I want to finish them for the shortest time."

C:"Well, I think that it is hard for Ebata-san to understand the value to dally over inefficient and unpleased works"

Ebata:"I am sorry but I cannot understand it at all, and I also have no plan to understand it in the future"

C:"I am glad that you have a lot of enjoyable things whenever and wherever. However Ebata-san"

Ebata:"What?"

C:"Eventually, it goes ill with you, if you think that there are "a lot of enjoyable things whenever and wherever"

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You know well that

the process of "the older you are, the loser you become"

Of course, "no exception, you will be".

All words you said now, will bear down on you as a curse entirety.

Yesterday, late at night, the whole family watched "Schindler's List" on Amazon PRIME.

The whole family was gutted after watching it, but I felt like I had finally finished what had been on my mind for years.

I was relieved that my daughters didn't seem to be in a terrible state of shock.

When I asked them the reason, they said, "I've heard a lot of things from you".

Certainly,

"Nazi Germany, the Japanese Army, Stalin, Pol Pot, the Chinese Communist Party, etc., up to the atomic bombing"

I'm an expert of "modern genocide history".

I wrote a column with a story called "The Emperor System is a Blockchain".

At that time, I did some research on Kojiki (Japanese mythology), which was quite interesting.

It's not bad to study Christianity, Islam, and Buddhism, but "Shinto" is also quite cool.

The best thing about it is that it makes visiting the shrine fun.

If you know which deity is worshipped in this shrine, your sightseeing will be much more enjoyable.

And when you understand that, you can understand the history of the area.

To put it bluntly, it is very exciting to see the "regime side" and the "anti-regime side" or, to put it more bluntly, the "right side" or the "left side" or the "third force" centered on the emperor system -- however,

I may be the only one who sees the shrine that way.

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The other day, I saw an advertisement in the newspaper for a hanging scroll of "Amaterasu".

It's easy to find them on Amazon.

On the other hand, the "Amaterasu" in my mind is a "naughty woman"

I think there is a certain need for this kind of hanging scroll.

Well, it's not a bad interior design, and above all, "Amaterasu" is the first block in the blockchain called the Emperor System.

It may be the first block of NFT (Non-Fungible Token) -- its owner is the current emperor, is that right?

Well, that's aside.

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I had an accident last night, blowing up my folder of English papers that I've been writing for the past few months.

This was right after I made major revisions on two papers last night.

I tried to recover it by any means possible, but the last backup was too old.

The looming submission deadline, the master manuscript nowhere to be found -- I was in a complete panic.

I tried to back up the folder, but the system didn't recognize the folder, so I couldn't do anything about it.

However, tampering with the master file could have completely destroyed the file system to an unrecoverable level.

I was in a state of "bloodlust".

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So I googled, researched, and prayed, and did ">chkdsk f: /f".

When the file system confirmed the recovery -- I saw "God" across the display.

It was 5:30 this morning.

I thought I caught a glimpse of God's halo through the window.

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So, although I have no plans to purchase the hanging scroll "Amaterasu",

If the hanging scroll "chkdsk f: /f" is sold, I am ready to buy it right now.

I thin that someone do or say something about "trigonometric function".

Two years ago, my released column,

"Recurrent Education [the former half]: The trigonometric function unnecessary theory and the Destruction of Individuality"

is now ranked in, so I was surprised.

Probability, this argument of "The trigonometric function unnecessary theory" will often be happened in the future.

However, rather than the above column, in the latter half,

"Recurrent education should be a "guidebook" for survival in the age of career abandonment".

I have argued hard opinions of mine like following,

"You say a lot of things, but the bottom line is that you guys just hate trigonometric functions: ..!"

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Please read on if you are interested.

I had a colleague who was a terrific engineer who would mumble, 'I wish I had something like this,' and two weeks later, he would make it and bring it to me.

(I'm sure I've told this story many times, but I couldn't find it again in my past diaries this time.)

He is one of Ebata's certified "geniuses" who always can say, "I've done it," and then show it to me.

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I make a proposal, consult with my boss, select team members, apply for a budget, set a schedule, manage progress, complete, and test, and during that period, a great deal of money and time is spent. Then -- the "ideal" of my initial proposal is gone and lost.

I have seen many processes since I was a business person.

Still, I know how amazing "I've done it" is from the bottom of my heart.

I laughed as the executives presented his result to the public as if their results were.

What I learned from the genius is

"What I learned from the genius: "If you have time to make proposal material, do it yourself without saying."

In other words, that is that.

"If you can't make it alone, you should prepare for half of your failure."

I have insisted on "private technical skills" and spent my weekend and long holidays making things myself.

However, there are some things that cannot be done by "individual power," but I think that is something to think ribosome things cannot help where I can do it by "individual power".

That's aside.

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From the viewpoint of our nation's economy, marriages are complex, and childbirth and childcare are hopeless. I know it well.

"Nobody can get married logically."

The result was my final answer from static data and numbers.

If there is something beyond the logic, it might be,

"I've done."

The ultimate weapon of "I've done" might be the last straw to make society, relatives, and the couple accept the marriage.

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What kicks our back against the sense of stagnation of society or individuals is just "I've done," I think.

My wife and I have already shared the recognition of the thought.

Therefore, if my daughter says,

"I've done."

I will reply to her

"Well done!"

I have already prepared for the time.